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Revenge should be like Genghis Khan. Destroyed entire areas to avenge disrespect.

Seemed like a nice person. But I think there was some knowledge gap. I now realize that the trainers do not have proper knowledge. Their knowledge is patchy. It is a sad state of affairs. I will have to do the heavy lifting.

full demoralize all the time. mujhse jalte hain.they were planning to bully me but couldn't. horrible people they are. I think americans are also pretty big bullies. They are not very good people. 

Chutiya desh ko barbaad kar dega. 5 saal mei hi chutiye ne bahut kaand kar diye.

Putting ecommerce product on the backburner for a month. Too much on my plate.

Eating out is only worth if the food is really good.    There are so many convenience foods that one doesnt need to eat out to escape hassles of cooking. Sadly, not many joints serve good food. I have outgrown the desire to eat out.  I have outgrown most of my childhood desires. There is nothing I want anymore (except revenge). Life is not just worth living. Dont people without any passion get bored?? Life is just so fucking boring.

I like Gunjan's voice from 104.8 fm. It is so playful. Reminds me of perizaad from joggers park.

Became a basic actuary in 3 hours. Feel good about it.

Too much chaos. Comfortably settled in a paying guest.

violence is the only solution to my problems. i don't think these people will stop torturing me until i do something like killing people.

take advantage of people at every stage. the world is a truly truly horrible place. People are worse than horrible. my only wish is to inflict a lot of pain and suffering in this world.

Defeated my detractors and enemies badly. have come out on top. they will try to change my reality now. it is like nobody even wants to acknowledge my work. everybody is in denial. fucking gas lighting all around. anyway managed to fuck all my enemies.

There is just no alternative. Money is off the table. Only death is an option now. Me or others. The price now is 100 million dollars.

People derive their identity from various sources. Some derive it from being beautiful, some from work, some from strength etc. Survival instinct has so many manifestations. I think evolutionary psychology can answer a lot of things about human behavior.

Revising linear algebra. Making decent progress. Starting to get an intuitive feel. Have actually started to enjoy it. Need to hack the neural network architecture to make it simpler.

Can game theory be applied to relationships?

Aamir khan is part of team Iron man. Team iron man is women's advocate. Thugs of hindustaan mei aamir khan angrezo ka agent hai. SRK is mostly superman. I guess same goes for salman khan.

Only engineers and AI developers will be relevant in the future. Everything else will be automated. All knowledge will be consolidated and automated. AI will replace everything.

Decided to leave Naggar. Not getting land. Plus it is 14 hours from Delhi (will need to commute periodically). Maybe somewhere in uttrakhand closer to Delhi.

It is because of hacking and manipulation. These people didnt let me settle down and work in peace. Otherwise, I could have stuck to one field. Fucking Indians. Horrible truly horrible people.

Modern psychiatry doesnt work very well. Last time even though my conditions were much better, I felt hopeless and depressed. Kind of broken. I think psychiatry did that to me.The medicines made me numb. This time even though my situation is much more precarious than the last time, I do not feel any hopelessness. Existential depression exists though. I feel I can face any challenge in the world. It may partly be due to my renewed philosophical outlook but I think with medications I would have become numb and hopeless like before. Psychiatry needs to undergo a radical change. Numbing a person is not the answer. My sister was responsible for the damage.

Success of neural networks has shown that embeddings work. Even though a combination of words can dilute the embeddings, they still work. Even LSA works for document similarity. So it is safe to say that dilution effect is not that much. But are there better methods??

Using LDA for extracting main themes. Wont have to calculate cosine similarity. It will give topics directly. Also more tangible. Less work. Not sure how it will fare. Test data should work even at sentence level. No dilution of embeddings due to whole document averaging. Train it on whole data and run it on individual sentences. I guess I can even drop words from the word topic matrix to make it better. Further, tamper the matrix using some more tricks. This method can be useful in text summaries as well. Fuck 4800 dimensions. This can also be useful for dimensionality reduction. Output can be fed into another network.

Booked the domain bestriskreward. Starting stock market modelling. Laptop not working. so not much to do. Basic framework for automated recommender is ready. Just need the data. This site will have the most extensive and comprehensive database regarding Indian and global financial markets. It should become the goto site for anyone looking to get data for financial markets and investments. Good progress on the site.It will easily be the best finance site.