Toofargone

The mundaneness of the world makes me sick. I would rather be alone than live in this world surrounded by customs and people which dont make any sense to me. 

Do we act differently to seek attention? Or is it our naivete? Is it because we are not wise to the ways of the world? Is it our hubris which refuses to accept the brutal nature of this unforgiving life?  Do we mellow down with time? Hasn't society benefitted immensely from people who were different? Why this discrimination? Why the stigma?  Why do we restrain and punish people who think and act differently? Why are we so intolerant? Do different people impinge on our sense of aesthetics and threaten our long standing customs? Do they annoy us because they refuse to conform? Why should anyone have any liberty when we dont have any? Is life really a train track with miles of detour on derailing? Why does every generation thinks it is wiser than the next and intelligent than the previous generation? Different people should be ready to face the consequences. Dont expect a bed of roses. Society will not accept you and will try to bring you down. You have to become mntally ...

This poem captures the essence of forgiveness. I hope it doesnt infringe on any copyright. क्षमा, दया, तप, त्याग, मनोबल सबका लिया सहारा पर नर व्याघ्र सुयोधन तुमसे कहो, कहाँ, कब हारा? क्षमाशील हो रिपु-समक्ष तुम हुये विनत जितना ही दुष्ट कौरवों ने तुमको ...

What good is money if you have been stripped of your dignity at every juncture of your life? What good can money do if every ounce of your being has been trounced and degraded?Can money heal you? Can it bring back your lost dignity? These are not rhetorical questions I ask. I ask these to the self appointed moral guardians of society. Why have I been singled out when millions go scott free? I have reduced to handouts from friends and family in the name of justice. Do you really call it justice?

It is a pretty good poem. I hope I am not infringing on any copyright. भूल गया है क्यों इंसान! सबकी है मिट्टी की काया, सब पर नभ की निर्मम छाया, यहाँ नहीं कोई आया है ले विशेष वरदान। भूल गया है क्यों इंसान! धरनी ने मानव उपजाये, मानव ने ही ...

IMO, escapism is moving away from a problem by immersing oneself in another activity. The reasons could be genuine or superficial depending on the viewer. IMO, the doer at some level believes that he is not indulging in escapism. To another person it might seem the opposite. It can happen because of different worldviews.

Ultimately things boil down to feeling good. If you can make somebody feel good, you can win them over. Advertisers appeal to this very factor. A lot of people exploit it for personal gains. This is a basic aspect of human nature.  There are certain tricks to making yourself and others feel good.

Hardwiring.

We travel for fun, relaxation, interests, a break from drudgery of our daily life, spending time together, bonding, adventure, bragging, forced vacation etc. How much of it is herd mentality? How much of it is real?

IMO, there can be varying levels of extroversion or introversion i.e. they are not black and white. The differences may lie in response to stimulus, interests, value system, skills, sensitivity, activity levels, past experiences, insecurities, worldview, and some other neurobiological wiring issues. All or some of the factors can be at play at the same time. IMO, it is not a mental illness. In my case, I simply do not have the physical and mental energy to keep up with this world. I want a relaxed and easy life. I dont need much. Basics will do. A small fund for future perhaps.  5k per month for current living expenses and 5k per month for future savings will do. I still cant get over all the covert bullying. It hurts.

Humans are vain and egoistic. They do not want to be taken advantage of.

Society is a manifestation of collective survival mechanism. Society fulfills our necessities and desires. To a non-thinker, perhaps there is nothing beyond society. As with most of the wordly things, the society gives and the society takes.

Boredom is a significant force driving human behaviour. Each one of us has a different way of dealing with boredom. What causes boredom? Are we hardwired to engage in some sort of activity? Do we constantly want to experience something new? How does boredom compare against our need for safety and security? How does boredom map to neurobiological circuits?

I dont want comfort and support. I am not afraid of loneliness. I dont want love and understanding. I dont want order in my house. I dont care about feelings. I am not worried about someone taking care of me when I am ill. I want freedom. I want a lot of alone time. I want to pursue many hobbies. I want a stress free life. Should I marry?