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Doing too much is eventually going to lead to a burnout. I am experiencing this right now. 

Bad stomach upsets. 

Biology has its role but a lot of it is mental. I think lust is an outcome of a turbulent mind.  If  the mind is in a calm state, lust won't enter too often. In a turbulent mind the survival instincts are hard at play which is not the case with a calm mind. A calm mind will experience the world differently. 

Can't say. Looks like it is still going on. 

Hackers need to come forward else people will die.  Hacking has caused the most butterfly effect. It has caused the maximum disruption in my life. Hackers have to go to jail or die.  yeh captain America team hacking mei involved hai. I guess captain America is Anti skill unit in some cases. Madarchod. Yeh madarchod verma unit bhi team captain America hai. saale team Kapil Vohra hai. madarchod team lion.  

Sheldon is racist. Netflix is racist. 

Wrong location. madarchod saale. has happened many times. 

Had to cancel my food due to politics. Truly horrible people.  Doesn't matter to me. Now I can order better food everyday. 

Both are my enemy. But who is the bigger enemy? Both are invested in my failure. Eventually Indians will have bigger problem from me due to various factors. I think a lot of Indians especially my family and Hindu fundamentalists and associated units are invested in my failure. The only thing I can conclude is that being team UK should be better for me. The lack of any support means that Indians are the bigger enemy for now.  The leg pulling culture is the biggest issue in India. This is why it is still lagging behind in most aspects. Can't see other people do well.  But I would still like to stay in India. I have no intention of going outside. Most importantly because of I can see that the person in my dreams is not a good person.  Some Chinese woman is also my enemy. 

Is the greater good the planet or humans? Why are humans important? Is it because of empathy? Why are animals not important? Because they are less evolved? Is it because humans are superior, they can do whatever they want? Are we misguided on some fundamental level?

Sunder Pichai team is my open enemy for sure. Truly horrible people. Facebook people are false friends. 

Should be charged with cyberbullying for years and prosecuted accordingly. Sometimes I think there is no point of putting in any effort. Will the game ever end? Is it possible for a person to live like this for such a long period of time? Isn't this inhumane on so many levels? Microsoft people may be involved. 

I am subjected to periodic delirium attacks. Why? 

Thoroughly bored with life. What is there to live for?  There is not a single soul I can trust. I think everyone is involved in the game.  I am in a limbo. 

I feel no longer free. Work has become a burden.

I think monal Narsaria's repeated failures in CA frustrated her and she took that out on me. I guess Roshan Monal Narsaria ka agent hai. Vishnu Sharma is Chinese unit. This unit is not Batman unit. Myntra, BookMyShow etc are agents of monal narsaria. Want to keep you in a sweet spot.

Staying away from society completely is possible only if I work in finance. This way I won't have to interact with anyone. The first and foremost goal of my life is to stay away from society. I cannot live with a society which has been so horrible to me.  The longer the game has run, the more my hatred for society has increased. Truly horrible this society has been and as such my only possible course of action is to distance myself from it as much as possible.  Another reason is hacking. What if everything in deep learning is hacked? Despite all my progress, no one has come forward to help me. It makes me feel that the only goal of society is to break me. There is nothing else.  White people need to leave me alone. This view has been shaped mainly because of Rohan Preece and Shruti Agarwal.   

One of the biggest enemies. Madarchod saala.

I swear I will start killing random people till I find him and kill him. Leave me alone or some one is going to get hurt. It seems like you are only going to leave after some violence. You are definitely team elephant.  Elephant is also small enemy.  Chennai is also team Iron man. 

Big enemy it is. Involved in demoralizing me. Madarchod Japani unit. 

I still maintain this. Hackers have tortured me at their will without understanding my plans. I am going to find and kill the hackers after the game is over. I suspect the queen unit, Bengalis and team Captain America are behind this. These hackers either need to go through the same thing or die. I don't care if it is the queen. If she is behind the hacking, she must suffer. There should be no doubt about it. Hackers will die. Most of my suffering has come from hacking. And suffer back they will. Nothing is going to change my decision. Random people will die if hackers don't come forward and take responsibility and go to jail.   The whore Shruti Agarwal needs to suffer the most. She should be stripped naked, dragged through streets,  slapped umpteen times, and then fed to dogs alive. She has to die a horrible death. This whore is the biggest reason for my miseries. If I could get one wish, it would be that I get to execute the above plan myself. The whore needs to die a t...

After implementing convex optimization (with Lagrange multipliers for constraints)  and black litterman, will move back to NLIDB. Need it for my data solutions. No point working on same things without feedback or customer. Maybe stick WITH BRR for one more month. First draft of Black Litterman done. Also general optimization done. Rest after feedback.  I am tired of manipulation and not receiving any help. I think women are instrumental in not letting me get the help I need. On top of all these, I have got truly horrible friends and family. I am definitely going to bid adieu to all of them once the game is over. They were participatory in the inhumane acts and I don't intend to associate with them in any way. I don't want to see them ever.  My father will probably be compensated for my loss. My father is probably one of the biggest enemies. Horrible human being. No doubt about it. 

Society is for people with herd mentality. Independent thinkers  don't really need to live with society.

I think helplessness is one of the major reasons of suicide. I have often felt extreme helplessness due to hacking, manipulation, stealing, and harassment. Hackers need to suffer. They need to experience the same helplessness I have experienced. I have thought about committing suicide due to this helplessness. I think people don't realize that I have nothing to lose.

The best finance site in the world is about to launch.

No one should get such a horrible family. Quorans are also demoralizing on my father's and Monal Narsaria's account. Brits probably also involved in degrading me. My father has proved to be a really horrible person. Warren buffet unit is probably also not my friend . Thakur and Kapoor look like team monal. Verma group is also not my friend.

Starting drinking again. I don't think the game is ever going to end. At least have some fun.

I guess women are also hell bent on demoralizing me. Want to prove me incompetent. 

White people need to leave me alone. I am not interested in them. White people are also involved in degrading and devaluing me. I just wish that white people left me alone. Please get off my back. I am not interested in having anything to do with you.  I can make my life on my own. White people are also involved in gaslighting at least i n terms of work. The person in my dreams needs to leave me alone or die. White people are not good people. Fairly horrible I would say. Heavily involved in degrading me. Everything they do is to further their own agenda. White people are primarily involved in degrading me.White people are showing me ads to degrade me. I should have known better. How can I make peace with people who want to keep using me for their own agenda? I guess one of my life objectives could be helping people tortured and traumatised by white people. The whole point of this charade was marvel ladies, cultural war, and trade war. Everything else was just manipulati...

The only way to remain sane is to cut off from the rest of the world.

Unrelenting hacking is going on. How is one supposed to work like this. Damage due to hacking is too much. Hackers need to suffer the most.

I think the world has moved towards experience. Utility is a given. Experience matters.

Real damage is hacking. Wasted a lot of my time, caused a lot of stress, and has been responsible for the destruction o f my life to a great extent. Israeli unit has installed surveillance software I guess. Coughing is the next worst thing. I wonder what the hackers want. Why are they slowing down my net? Hackers should not go scott free in any condition. They have to suffer.

Every single aspect of life is affected by it. I can't be sure if something is part of manipulation or not.  Yeh madarchod Haryanviyo n e hi Goa me aag lagawai hai. Now I realize that Goa thing is a total setup. Shruti whore is involved in this.