Toofargone

I should kill all the horrible people involved in hacking, degrading, and demoralizing me. I am going to dedicate my life towards hurting women. I am pretty much beyond saving now. Only desire is to spread hurt and misery in the world. The same way it was done to me. I will make everyone miserable. It is not about narcissism. It is about continuous violation of rights and dignity.

The rational person is doomed. You have to be irrational. The world is horrible.

I cant control it anymore. I will snap pretty soon. I dont know why but my violent tendencies are increasing. Frustration levels are increasing. I think I have reached saturation. Frustration and depression are becoming more frequent. I cant trust anyone anymore.

Harassment continues unabated. 1st January is final.

Will work on digital marketing tool for the next few days. Automate all posting on social media. Made some progress on digital marketing Managed to get a few of them running including posting on the pages. User wall posting is facing permissions issue. Although google has better documentation there are issues. Youtube also done to a great extent. Will include ecommerce sites and social media sites in digital marketing suite. It will take about 15 days to finish. Ebay also done to some extent. Looks like it is going to be an easy ride. It is good that I am finishing all my projects gradually. These  people will not let any project see the light of day in the near future. I dont think they will let me win after putting in so much effort in demoralizing me. Better take the projects to near completion. Then finish them once the torture ends. The semi finished ones will have diminishing returns. Better to get more returns on these projects and get consulting on the remaining. I d...

Will start the site in a week. It will be a nice change. Started the site. Will work on it when I feel bored.  Should be fun. It is on backburner for now. Will finish it once I am done with weight loss site and digital marketing tool.

I have become too stressed and depressed. It is time to add some more philosophy.

Filing for separation from my family. I can't live with the betrayers. Also need to live Himachal Pradesh.

Web development sucks big time. Too much grunt work. My life has become boring. I feel depressed. Need to have some fun. I think there is nothing left to live for anymore. The 1st January date is final. There is no point of living with this harassment. I guarantee people will die on 1st Jan. I dont go back on my word. You have been warned. I think I am genetically predisposed to depression.  I think death is better than this life. I have become heavily depressed. Dont feel like doing anything. I think it is web development which sucks the life out of me. It is just so fucking boring. Even sex doesnt excite me now. Seems like I am dropping in a limbo. Maybe I am sick. I think I have got some sort of food poisoning.

Will also start work on a digital marketing tool. I plan to operate a number of sites. Digital marketing tool will help.

Web development is so boring. The reason probably is that it is easy. Hacking makes it difficult to work. Django packages are pretty cool. Most of them are nearly plug and play. Allows rapid development.  Startup journey is tough. Especially with someone in my position. It is difficult to keep yourself going in the face of so much adversity. There seems to be no light at the end of the tunnel. Yet, I keep going. I dont know why.  First draft almost done. I am bored of the weight loss site. Probably move back to chatbot after the Diet AI is done. On second thoughts will work on it for one more week.  Demoralizing also continues. There is no escape from the constant demoralizing.  I am surprised by the lack of common sense. If BMR can be determined using age and body composition, everyone will have near same BMR. That means there is no such thing as slow metabolism. Heights of stupidity. Such stupidity should be a criminal offence. The site sho...

This is the only course left to me. It is a do or die situation. Violence is the only answer. I will probably die or go to jail on 1st January. Violence and terrorism are the only answer to my problems. People have to die. Hacking continues. Harassment continues. Terrorism is the only solution. Kill millions of people. Kill everyone. Starting today, everyday my mind is hacked, the price goes up by a million dollars. This rate will continue till 31st December. After that only killing. Else, be ready with 50 million dollars on 31st December. Or stop it today and you will only have to pay 10 million dollars. If brain hacking continues, I may snap earlier and start killing earlier. I will kill in the next five days. Stop brain hacking right away otherwise the deaths will be on you. If I have one unnecessary dream today, people will die tomorrow. It is a guarantee. I dare you. Or deposit 1 million dollars in my account by 12 midnight. I have nothing left to live for. I will make good ...

My carb consumption has spiralled out of control. Need to reduce it or start fasting again.  Cannot summon enough will power. Fasting is out of question.Will have to go for a higher protein diet.  

Issuing an ultimatum. Stop all hacking and harassment by year end 2018. Be ready with 10 million dollars. Otherwise people will start dying January onwards.

Traditional life makes me sick. Family dynamics make me sick. Maybe I am a psychopath and sociopath.  I want to live in the orchard forever.

I am back in the zen mode. What is the point of working hard? More pain. More humiliation. No help. Nothing else. I will take it easy.

Too much fluctuation in electricity. Stuff will get damaged. Better not work for now.

Fairly certain that the shield will betray.

Demoralizing has started again. Horrible people. Horrible world. The ecommerce part alone will fetch a tidy sum. It will also show up fairly high on search results because of all the additional content in the site and blog courtsey domain authority and links.

Feeling tired and exhausted due to all the negativity and manipulation. There seems to be no light at the end of the tunnel. Seems like I am fighting an endless war. But there is no other way out. I have to keep on fighting. Despite all this manipulation, I have to keep moving. Defeat is not an option. The only option is victory. I should probably end all contact. Contact will just bring negativity. Just focus on some of my projects.

Feeling a bit depressed. Lack of smoking perhaps. What is the objective of continuing to torture me and not allowing me to work properly?

I have to leave whole past including family, friends etc. This is the only way to keep moving forward in life. Today onwards i am terminating all contact with my family and friends. Boycott social media especially youtube.

Worse than westerners. Demoralize their own kind for monetary benefit. I think some people in Naggar will get money if they fool me. I remember Ravi Thakur saying Iski laga daala to life jhinga lala. My brother is one of the main enemies. My sister as well.

Living conditions fine again. Things are in order.

Blocking anyone who advocates supervised deep learning from scratch in NLP. I dont think it is the right way to go. I guarantee I will beat supervised learning using a fraction of time and money. 

First draft of weight loss site almost done. The best weight loss site in the world is here. It is time to make the best chatbot in the world. Supervised learning, even if it is deep learning,  will be defeated. It is time for unsupervised learning to rule. Do my enemies accept defeat? Are they left with any other choice? Accept defeat and your suffering will be reduced. Accept me as the king. Charging working. Will spend a few more days on weight loss site. 

Will also start a company providing hydroponic and aeroponic kits for personal use as well as for farmers. The units will be completely automated. This is the future.

Every aspect of my life is hacked and controlled. It is so frustrating. I dont think my enemies want me to get better. It is only about humiliating me.

Horrible people. Hacked my laptop again. Motherfuckers will not let me work. These hackers want to destabilize me. Horrible people, horrible world. Everytime something starts looking good, they try to destabilize me. It is very difficult to remain stable if everything in your life is attacked on a regular basis. Hacking has depressed me. I feel helpless. I want to kill so bad.

Will also start a senior citizen site. Will be based mainly on tracking solutions. Will remove everything else. Have done all the research. Sadly, the research is not available due to previous laptop gone to manipulation. Will keep developing sites till I get funding for chatbot. There is no point self studying so much linguistics. Or maybe I will.

I guess I will have to avoid social media. Full of negativity.

Systematic degradation continues. These people are keeping up the pressure. They will not accept anything other than my total destruction. But they have been defeated very badly. Indians are bigger enemy than the westerners.  Agarwals are the worst. Horrible people. I want to stay away from them forever. Sadly people like Thor do not leave me with any option. I will have to go back to home if the rain continues. Anti tech movement agarwals ka hi hai. Or may be whore of England ka hai. My father keeps demoralizing me indirectly. They want to put me under my father's thumb. The demoralizing is increasing. I knew it beforehand. They will keep discouraging me. Will not let me do anything. Only objective is to break me. They wait for a few days and then start demoralizing. Horrible people, horrible world.

Working without a proper keyboard is a bit difficult.

Integrated maps in the site. fairly simple. but need to write details of the place. Otherwise can add more details in the backend using some logic.

I think I will have to start taking anti depressants.  I cannot live in this weather. 

Hacking is one of the main reasons for problems in my life.

People think my chatbot is limited to dependency parsers. Graphs allow so much more than that. Combined with other techniques, they will beat a lot of supervised systems at a fraction of time and cost. I can also easily incorporate semantic parsers into the graph solution. If you think about it, supervised learning doesnt make sense for NLP. Once you have taught the system how to process sentences using parsers, you shouldn't need to train it again and again. The closest thing is transfer learning. My  system mimics the human language processing system in a close way. The main components of chatbot are: 1. Sequence modelling 2. Classification Parsers and graphs do sequence modelling. Linguistics can also be used for sequences. Classification also handled using joins. Rest one can do tfidf or multiclass multilabel classification using ngrams . Add LSA for handling variety. I am the king.