Almost Human

Some songs make me feel almost human. I think intellectualism is a curse. Experiencing life is what makes life worth living. Understanding life doesn't make it worth living. Stop understanding. Start experiencing. Unfortunately, my experiencing circuits seem a bit rusty.

The emptiness leads down only path: suicide. Nothing can cure emptiness. I think my ultimate fate is suicide.

To be frank, I don't feel anything. No pain and no happiness. I think it is the abuse which has caused this. Seriously contemplating suicide again. No point living a mundane life without experiencing anything.

Only penny excites me. It seems so shallow. Yet, the feeling persists. I know the feeling will fade away pretty soon. The fun is only in the chase.