Toofargone

Art affects us at primal level. The more it appeals to the primal level, the better it is.

I think I will hit greater than 80 percent.

Nothing is worth the effort of dealing with negative people. my brother is the main enemy.

Part of justice league.

cant do anything in his life. demoralizes me constantly. useless fuck. joru ka gulam. lowest paid among his batchmates.  I will go back to chatbot. not working on weight loss site. no point doing it.

ER Graphs work as semantic parsers  (frame semantics) to some extent especially when combined with dependency graphs. This minimizes the need for semantic parsing.

As defeat looms large over their head, my enemies are back to cheating. Hacking, electricity problems, and rain are just a few of the manipulations used to throw me off balance. Still David will slay Goliath. There is no doubt about that. Infact David has slain Goliath.

Even the symbols at the top are overridden. Very irritating. I need to kill people to get rid of irritation. Leaving for home for a few months. No point living here. Too many issues. Even my health is deteriorating. I think it is the water. I think Americans will keep stringing me. Their end objective is to humiliate and break me. I suspect they are behind the hacking. It is better to live a relaxed life. No point suffering unnecessarily.  I think the usual charade of throwing me off balance as I near completion. Useless fucks. Living here has become a hassle. I think I have reached the limit of harassment. People have to die. Smoking is the only thing keeping me sane.  I think if there were no drugs, there would have been a lot more violence. I think drugs and sex are the only things worth doing in life. Rest all is meh. I will pursue more drugs going forward. This is perhaps the only way to lead a stress free life. Going to completely abandon the path of righteousness. Wil...

Consulted with a linguist. I think linguists operate quite differently than engineers. I think engineers are better suited for chatbot development. Will modify the approach to incorporate more linguistics. Graphs take care of quite a few linguistics issues. Marrying statistical approaches with graphs and linguistics and some additional heuristics should  create the perfect recipe. The call connection was quite poor. Couldn't get all the details. Will need better connection next time. I am definitely going to beat state of the art. I am 100 percent sure about it. A linguist sees problems. An engineer sees solution.

Dont feel like working on the weight loss site. Way too boring. But it makes sense to complete the site. Will devote next ten days to finish it and make it the state of the art in weight loss.

I very much suspect that they will pull some dirty trick.

The desperation of my enemies is increasing. It can be sensed in their voices. My useless sister and her useless husband Tintin have been defeated like never before. They should kneel before me.

The likes of which I have never seen before. You can fill a fucking swimming pool.

I will develop my own search engine. It has become important.

Sometimes, a bad fit of cough can give rise to feelings similar to other highs.

Too much work to finalize. Dont think it makes any sense to do it without a consultant. I have made NLIDB look so easy. It is going to beat a lot of supervised ones.

I think a lot of it started in UK. Especially with Neha, Deepmala Bharti, Phil, and some British Gas Agents. I suspect Phil was connected to the queen. Plus I had exposed some glaring issues in BG system which they were not able to digest. I suspect there is also some scamming issue related to my skills. I think ultimately everyone wants to break me.  Who are the players in various teams?  Team Captain America Obama Google Netflix Team Iron man Microsoft Facebook Twitter Elon Musk Team UK Chennai - courtsey my sister Barclays Bengalis Movie actors such as george clooney Women Team Batman Indians Youtube Vijay Shekhar Sharma - Paytm Sunder Pichai is definitely Batman Netflix Team Superman Dilip Singh Team UK women Justice League is India and UK. MCU is US. Chennai is UK. Hyderabad is US. Tata is with Chennai. Team Iron man is also a part of team UK.  Team UK units are one of the main enemies. The enemy list might have changed over time.I  think Captain Ameri...

An artist lays bare his soul.

I am a little bit sick. Caught cold.

It is coming along nicely. The flow is improving. I may have a winner on my hands. I think I will write a little bit more. I need to get it reviewed by someone. I am enjoying writing. This is fun. Dostoevsky in my head. I intend to write poignant monologues and conversations. Full of self loathing, self pity, guilt, remorse. Even though I don't feel these things, I will write it. Stopping the novel now. Back to NLIDB. 

I think pandits including RSS has also been involved in demoralizing me.

I think south Indians are also working in collaboration with UK.

Writing is so relaxing and stress relieving. 1 day of writing can relieve so much stress. The novel is gaining some flow. I could have a good book out fairly soon.

Why should I not shit on people every opportunity I get? People shit on me whenever they get an opportunity. Infact they create opportunities to shit on me. So many people are engaged in demoralizing and degrading me. I do the same to their agents. By proxy, I do it to them.

if women stop

I think I will take a week long break. Relax and free my mind. I guess no point working without considering efficiency issues or linguists. Perhaps write for a week or so. I dont have the energy to self study all this.

I think the torture will stop only when I break down. But there is no breaking down for me. So, I think the torture will never stop.

I think the rock bottom references allude to Now you see me 2. So many references have been made about me in so many movies. Both Indian and foreign. 

i think the lawyer just wants the details of my family's assets.

I am proving these assholes wrong everyday. At least I get the satisfaction of abusing these people. I relieve some of my frustration. I guess the people of Naggar are compensated monetarily for their support. 

I don't think it is needed in all the cases. I believe a lot of things can be developed on dependency or semantic parser..deep learning is useful for uncovering hidden features. parsers already do that. Deep learning is more useful for complex patterns which cannot be understood by humans. NLP is different. Here parsers can do all the heavy lifting. Graphs take care of dimensionality issue to a great extent. 

Kill commit suicide get justice through courts

british and facebbok agent gaurav thakur came to demoralize me.

I really have nothing to live for. If anyone has any painless way of dying, I will happily take it.I am too exhausted by all the negativity. I sometimes don't even feel the energy for revenge.all the circuits are overworked. I think I have understood everything about life. The classic I am too old for this shit applies to me now. This shit being life.

I think a lot of people in the west (and some in India) think that I am a scammer. What can I do about it? You are going to have to pay millions of dollars in lost revenue.

You just need a fresh look at a bug or issue that is causing problems. Sometimes even though the problem is very silly, it can be missed because of boredom, tiredness, or any other trivial reason. A fresh look can solve the issue.

I think I am destined to become a bad person. There is no good left in me. I am starting to feel permanent changes in me. My mentality has started to shift towards criminality. when you drop self righteousness, it gets easy to live with injustices. but that very same self righteousness was keeping you on the right path. you shift towards criminality. man is not a machine that can be tuned perfectly. i think adopting a criminal mentality will help me with the pain.

they are one of the biggest enemies. they want me to submit to my father. working in collaboration with UK.

Just looking at her pretty face melts away the stress.

i have a crush on him.

If your only objective was humiliation, then my only objective should be revenge.

These people are fucking hypocrites. On one end they say dont take revenge. On the other they keep torturing me. What the fuck do they want? This is hypocrisy of the highest order.

Everyone will look for the worst in me. I will give them something worse than worst.

useless fuck. keeps trying to establish his superiority. He is no better thsn a donkey.

my enemies are getting desperate. They are waiting for the impending defeat.

The desperation of my enemies is increasing. They cant digest the fact that after spending so much time and money, they will have to accept defeat. I have won by miles. They are trying to increase the pressure. Creating more problems for me through mental torture. Trying to get me imbalanced.

Is it because of the whore of england? Or Indian politicians? Or my family?

I will force the girl to divorce me. She will have no choice but to divorce me. I will withold all contact and affection. I will make her life miserable. I will force her into the arms of another man and then use it as grounds for divorce. I am sick like that.

I am back to drinking alcohol. Just because of the signals. They will not let me live in peace. I will go back on all the developments made in the past few months. I will become evil again. There is no point in being good. picch you are welcome to suck my dick. Picch is not a true friend.

I think I will have to move without the variable path filtering. Will limit the functionality a little bit. Not a big deal. Can do it using other methods. Very difficult to get responses to Neo4j doubts. Not even getting a good linguist. I don't want to redo the queries. Or probably wait for a couple of days. Finalized dictionaries for storing things. Lists look inefficient.  This is for sure going to be the best NLIDB in the world. Even supervised ones are going to look inferior to it. 

Doing nothing is very powerful. Do not engage your senses in any way. It brings peace.

I think the bitterness is gradually increasing over time. I think the last vestiges of goodness are exhausting. Only hatred remains. The good thing is that it doesnt torment me anymore. There is no urgency to exact revenge. I never thought that I will become this kind of person. But here we are.  I think I understand the pain of terrorists. I can empathize with their pain. The lack of justice drives terrorism.

What is the point of having a family which demoralizes and degrades you? my brother is part of the justice league. my uncles and aunts are also part of the justice league. my brother is completely against me. against everything I do. my sister at least is only against tech. I have defeated the justice league badly. Even after doing so much that too in the face of relentless negativity, my family continues to degrade and devalue me. Their only objective is to break me. Why would anyone want to live with them? The important question is: Are their actions forgivable? Is there any point of a family which will not support you even in this critical situation? I think it is better to leave such a family. Useless fucks. Filing for separation from my parents. It is finalized. Now that they have dragged this fight unnecessarily, I will claim my share in the ancestral property. I was going to leave it alone but not anymore. I will make it dirty and ugly. 

Even though different people have different circuits,is there something common that we all aspire to? And are the circuits for these aspirations similar? Why do selfless deeds make some of us happy? Is the happiness temporary? Is it just a change which gives us relief? Is it the belonging and bonding or the empathy which makes us happy? 

I think she is also one of the villains.

my philosophy encompasses a wide range of philosophies including existentialism, absurdism, nihilism, buddhism, evolution, and many others. It is the mother of all philosophies.

I think the fear of defeat has my opponents worried. They have cut off my electricity.

They will not let me live in peace. They will not support me in anything. They will keep demoralizing me. It is better to leave India. Even though a lot of it is being done in collusion with foreigners, I blame them for turning their backs on fellow countrymen. I think I will shift to uttrakhand or some other cold place. Need to leave himachal. horrible and stupid people.

Bit bored of NLIDB. Working on recommender system for a change. Will work after I get the variable path funda. Plus I need to consult a linguist which I dont see happening before February. Rest all is more or less solved. So will take it easy on NLIDB. Will keep working on it a little bit. Will work on other aspects as well. I am pretty sure my family wants to keep me down. Why wont they support me when I have come so far? It is better to work on the NLIDB once I consult a linguist. That way I won't have to rework. I will have to increase tfidf based retrieval or sql natural language or boolean search in NLIDB. A lot of questions wont have any functions etc. A bit of preprocessing and then feed it to TFIDF. Built content based and collaborative recommendation engines. Back to NLIDB. My enemies are having sleepless nights. I have wasted all their efforts to break me. 

I am going to sue these people for health damages as well. The stress due to all the manipulation has caused a great damage to my health.

Will work on the novel on the weekends. I think it will be worth something.

I dont think I can live without smoking. I get extremely cranky and depressed. feel like dying without smoking. This time is better. I am going to taper it off.If I don't get stressed unnecessarily, I can reduce it.

I am going to count goddamn in suits. Especially by Jessica. Is it a common parlance in US legal community?

There is no other reason. Only point is to break me either monetarily or work wise. I will not give them the satisfaction. I will drag the fight forever. In fact the reverse of breaking is happening. I am only getting stronger day by day. It must really piss off these people. Has UK been humbled? Are the Bengalis  humbled? Do punjabis accept defeat? I think so. I have inflicted the worst defeat on these people. I dont have any notivation to live. Only a victory will give me any motivation to live. These people have to accept defeat. There is no other way around it. I will drag this fight until these people accept defeat. Victory is the only way to minimize the cognitive dissonance.  Honestly, I feel like retiring. I am worn out and completely exhausted. 

I will try to quit smoking once more. lets see how it goes. Have started experiencing severe breathing problems. I don't think I can quit. I start experiencing withdrawal symptoms.

If I don't get a response from the international court, I will have to take matters into my own hand.

I think I will enjoy my time until rain stops. I cant work in rain.

Made up my mind not to live long term in Naggar. I don't like the people. Also there is a lot of bad blood. Plus people here are really stupid . I will look for some other place in the mountains. Perhaps shift to Uttrakhand. I think I will try to leave India in the near future. Definitely not UK. Perhaps someplace like Russia. the philosophical side of me resonates with russia. i am not a capitalist anyways. i dont like the west a lot. It will be great if I get to open a strip club somewhere. I think a strip club is my true calling. Will start calling immigration agencies from monday. I have to leave India. There is nothing in here for me anymore. I will have to suffer for the rest of my life. These people will not let me live in peace. I think if I get some land for free or at good rates in a rural area, it can be pretty great. I can set up a relaxed life. I don't think I will want to live in a city. The real problem is hard work. I don't think I have anything left...

Not giving a fuck truly helps.There is no more stress. Prior to the change in attitude, if anything was hacked, I used to stress about it. I dont anymore. At least my life is peaceful. I attribute a lot of my problems to hacking. The whole digital marketing suite was wonderfully conceptualized. But hacking ensured that it did not see the light of day. Same with option trading. The same would have happened with chatbot if I hadnt changed my attitude about not giving a fuck. Knowing that I have won also helps me enjoy my life. The resentment of my enemies is a wonderful feeling.

Relaxing is so much fun. I enjoy this laid back life. Technology has its advantages. Build a product and then earn royalty from it. I will build some products, sell it, and then retire. I would like to open a strip club. Seems perfect fit for me. Doing a little bit keeps the humiliation and torture at bay. I can live like this forever.

Filing a case against my family for permanent separation. I realize that they will always try to force their will on me. The last conversation with my father made it pretty clear. It is better to end this once and forever.

Wouldn't it be great to retire at the age of 35? I really feel like retiring and leading a relaxed life. I feel so tired and exhausted by all the stealing, hacking, and manipulation. I think theft of the apples was the last straw. I don't have any energy and motivation left to work. I keep working on chatbot a little bit. I don't think they will let me get any clients for the chatbot even though it is going to be the best one in the market. I don't think they will let me do anything else. All this exhausts me. It saps my energy. I think my family along with UK wants to prove me worthless. Probably they are getting some money out of all this. The only goal is to humiliate and break me. Even though I feel exhausted, I will deny them this satisfaction. I have broken previously and the results have not been good. I will be the last man standing this time.

I think Tintin and Shruti and south Indians are british agents who are involved in degrading and devaluing me.

The humiliation cycle will continue. Until I break down, they will keep pursuing it. It will be like the last time. Due to medication, I had become disillusioned and weak. They keep preying on my righteousness. It is better to become the opposite. This time I am going to defeat them. In fact, I have defeated them. Google also has to accept defeat. Everyone has to accept defeat.

The west things that Indians are beggars. That they have no pride and dignity. They will take their charity. Fuck charity. After the best NLIDB is done, I will sue you for 10 million dollars. Even if I have to do it in international court. Are women ready to apologize? Especially agents of Neha Sharma. How conveniently did people overlook whatever good I did for her? I threw an old jacket while coming back from UK just because she needed extra space for some of her stuff.  Agreed that I did not need the jacket anymore but it is the gesture that counts. Thats why I say people are pigs. How based on a very small number of incidents did they judge me? UK has to pay the price. They will be tried in International Court under the crimes against humanity category.

It is high time quorans get a taste of their own medicine. All degradation and devaluation will be answered with abuses.

New rule. No work on weekends. I need to relax more. Too much work is stressing me out.

Changed my mind. Can't do a job. Can only do business. There is no point working for other people. I can only work for myself. I am too headstrong to be dictated what to do. It will result in more issues for me.

I think Mark Zuckerberg is iron man.

I think some part of the code is hacked.If not, I have become the KING of NLIDB.