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No deal now. All deals are off. The last date has passed. There are only two options now: 1. Kill me 2. Prepare for the death of others There will be no going back on my word.

Why dont people just leave me alone? Why do they want to mould me to fit into society? Time and again I have expressed my desire to live away from society. I will not change.  Not even a bit. Do all you can. I am very very stubborn. I am what I am. If there is no intervention in my life, I can think about changing. If you try to force it, forget it. Westerners: I am not interested in studying or working for you. You have given me enough grief for a lifetime. Just leave me alone. Otherwise the consequences will be very bad. It is going to be bad for UK no matter what. Indians: Also leave me alone. You have also participated in degrading and humiliating me. My family: Leave me alone. You people have been the worst. Torturing me when I needed your support the most. I need to retire or at least lead a semi retired life. There is nothing else to do. I do not enjoy working anymore. All I want to do is laze around, eat, and relax all day.

I feel very peaceful right now. I guess I will take a break to enjoy my peace . A week perhaps. The only thing I want is revenge. Nothing else. I have realized I truly dont care about anything anymore. The peace is more of depressive nature. I am gripped by heavy depression. Constant negativity and harassment has sucked the life out of me. I thank quorans for planting the seed of retirement. I would probably never have thought about it otherwise.

This is final 101 percent. The horrible way in which they continue to treat me leaves me no choice. No one should ever get such a horrible family. My family will always put their ego before me. Either they are stupid or very egoistic. They dont understand that I have the upper hand right now. I think my father will keep trying to compete with me. Useless asshole. Retired at the age of 50 and became a burden. I think western torture is over now. Now it is mostly my family. I have found peace without them. I dont think they will stop without subduing and humiliating me. Their only desire is my complete breakdown and submission. Truly horrible people. If I commit suicide, no money including my life insurance (if any) and house should go to my family. These horrible people should not benefit from my death. It should be donated to a hydroponic farming trust. My family has become pretty toxic. Best if I severe ties with them completely. No one should ever get such a family. Even after pu...

No deal after 1st Jan. Only do and die.

Do my enemies accept defeat? I have defeated them badly.

People in India do not have good knowledge of options. Scope seems a lot. My father doesn't even understand delta and arbitrage. How can these people trade options without guidance? These people shouldn't be allowed to trade without education. Simple put call parity is not understood by most of the people. Implemented a basic svm non linear classifier for predicting the direction. Saw an absolutely stupid implementation of linear regression for stock price prediction. How can people be so stupid? Such stupidity must be criminalized. Made me question if I understood it right. I guess good feature engineering should work. I do think that there are patterns in the prices and that stock prices are not really a random walk. As usual, deep learning might not really be necessary. Good feature engineering with SVM should be enough. Will have to brush up a little bit. Will have to go deeper to make it useful from a commercial point of view. Will backtest put call parity extensively....

Saala punjabiyo ko randi banao. Punjabis are team superman for sure.

Hackers don't understand the domino effect of hacking. It makes my already tough life tougher. Hacking throws off entire routine into disarray. It is not like I have facilities for working round the clock.

Started embracing cold. Am going to do waist up naked walks in chilly mornings on a regular basis. Also started exercising. I think the torture is going to be endless. I need to become a killing machine to end this myself. I think my body can withstand cold a lot more than others.

TAll this theft has caused me a lot of hardship in winters. Fuckers stole all insulation materials. Lack of water also causes a lot of problems. Fucking nepalis. Horrible horrible people. Scum of the earth. If I had water and insulation, life would have been much easier.

Have become depressed again. Life is so boring. Quorans are mostly team superman and Ironman. I think MMT is also team superman. Have lost all desire for sex also. I think depression is getting stronger than ever.

Also starting an investment site. I don't think the needs of users are addressed properly. I guess I will give tech a break for the time being. Made good progress on the options trading site. A lot of features should be done by tomorrow. Dates are a fucking mess. 2 weeks should be enough to build a basic site. I guess I will have enough products by the end of 2 months. These products should help me retire comfortably before I turn 40. This is my end goal. Retire asap. Programming fucking sucks the life out of me. It is such a fucking boring thing. Made an initial plan of investment site.

I think I will try to retire in the next few years. I a m too tired and mentally exhausted by all the negativity in my life. The torture has left me mentally deranged and psychopathic. I just wish to be left alone. I have lost all desire to work. I do not have any wish to do any good in the world. The only thing I can think of is revenge. Nothing else. It dominates me day and night. I dont think I will ever find peace.

Going back to chatbot. It is time to beat state of the art on stanford dataset. Get ready to see some magic. Options trading will have to wait. The god of NLIDB is coming.

First draft of weight loss site done. No point doing it any further without consulting, some testing, and funding. Basic app also done. I guess I will add a nodejs backend to handle api calls as it will be IO intensive. Essentially django backend for everything else and nodejs for IO Apis. Or maybe make everything async in Django. Need a consultant to determine the best solution.

I guess terrorism related info can only be found on darknet.

Starting options trading website. will simplify stock market and option trading for everyone. Should be done in a week or two. I guess I will merge it with data science site. Finally making a foray into deep learning. Basic option analyzer ready. Very basic backtesting framework ready. Focusing on machine learning now for predicting  prices. Feature engineering is going to take a lot of time.

I think I will be better off in a dehumanized state. Then things won't bother me. Better become a robot. I think single life is the best for me. I have found peace. No more worries about work or anything else. Will take it easy. Cutting all social interactions for some time. No more social media or anything. Social interaction is the root cause of most of the sufferings. Although it is necessary, I believe I am better off without it. In my case it is much better living alone. For me, t he benefits of living alone far outweighs the benefits of living with society. A dispassionate approach can be good in overcoming negativity .

CA ka bahut saara kaam automate ho jaayega. I think CAs were involved in fucking me. Make CAs redundant through automation. Monal Narsaria ko unemployed karo. Make her feel useless. Demoralize her completely.

No one should get such a family. Horrible negativity spreading family. I now know for sure that my father is jealous of me.

Building apps using App inventor. Will test a bit of integration. With Appinventor, you can get staryed right away using common sense. Will work on it for 2 days. Hopefully some integration will be tested. Basic app with post request and other necessary components done using appinventor. I suppose I will sync the devices with the phone and send requests from phone. Will have to build a lot of apis.  Fucking lot of work.

I am worn out. All I want is to retire and lead a relaxed life. I don't want to exert myself anymore. Will do that after completing the projects.

Not sure how it is going to shape up. Perhaps will have to research it. Maybe just make the first draft. Finalize it later. Will need to consult human interaction experts. The site should be valued at 1.5cr plus for sure now. Everything under one roof for weight loss clients. No solution like this exists in the market. I am the god of weight loss. Funding should help me take it forward. Made a basic posting thing. Will do the rest later.

Fucking boring web development is. Sucks life out of me. How can anyone do such a boring job? I for one cannot. I will die from boredom.

They will torture me. No point going home. Will probably live here forever.

I think economics references are due to Sheryl Sandberg. She should definitely be killed.

There seems to be no light at the end of tunnel. Fuckers have caused burnout with humiliating dreams. Dont even let me sleep properly. I think US journalists are superman. I think most of the US people are superman. My father says I should run a senior citizen center. Can there be a worse father?Praveen sharma monal narsaria ka hi agent tha.

I definitely need funding for the weight loss site. Too many things to do single handedly.  By now, people know that I know about weight loss and my idea has merit. This is definitely the best weight loss site in the world. Plus has got plently of commercial opportunities. It can be refined a little bit after consulting.

A lot of Indians are anti tech for me I guess. I think Mumbai is also pretty anti tech. Monal narsaria ka gang is also anti tech. Mainly m y family's CA waalo ka gang is anti tech. C hennai is also anti tech somewhat. Microsoft, Barclays, MIT, and UK are in cahoots. Upwork is also an agent of Microsoft.

Could be one of the easiest way to peace.

My life has become pretty miserable right now. Extremely bad weather, no water etc. I understand why terrorists do these things to America. Fucking Americans t orture people unnecessarily for their fun. White people should be killed horribly. Why don't these people understand that I am already stretched mentally. It is hard enough as it is. Still they make it worse. I work without a keyboard which takes its toll. Fuckers hack all mykeyboard.I dont burn wood which makes my surroundings cold. I am living alone surrounded by negativity on all sides. Plus I have to do all my work myself. There is not an iota of luxury I have. I am not being a pussy. It is not easy being me right now. Plus the mental energy used in working is too much. I should kill my whole family who are engaged in spreading negativity.

Big cats have it hard. Especially the females. They have to bear the cubs and fend for them without any assistance from males. But on the bright side, I think they live longer because they can usually adjust with new males. Males probably don't see females as rivals. Males have to fight to death or leave their territory. This is the only disadvantage of being a male big cat. Otherwise pretty cool if you have a big territory and females to do most of the work . Life couldn't get better in such scenarios. I would like to be a male big cat in such cases.

I think he is quite active on quora and engaged in demoralizing me. I don't think that he still understands that I play reverse game with Quorans. Tintin is also my enemy. I think because he is pretty much useless, others are useless too. He is a spy of the whore queen.

After completing my projects, I will become a writer and philosopher. I think this is where my true passion lies. Will also give me ample time to pursue terrorism activities. I should destroy britain. Will give me a lot of pleasure.

I dont think that the future of web development is very bright. It will become more of plug and play system both at front and backend in the near future. I think my sites are being hacked again. Just to annoy me.

I have realized this finally.They are the worse than brits. They just want to break me. Nothing else. They are my true enemies. I dont understamd why the fuckers won't leave me alone. Making an existing situation worse. They pretend to be friendly but are in fact involved in fucking and demoralizing me. I just wish they left me alone. Their actions have caused me a lot of stress. They will have to pay. Brits are enemies. Americans are frenmies. These people have taught me that hardwork in a waste. I think Sean Kernan is instrumental in demoralizing me on quora.

I think for me the fun is only in the chase. Once I get something or near completion, I start losing interest. Thinking of starting something cool like airbnb for offgrid living. It should be fun.

Too much work.Especially for a single person.Plus my desire for creating more than awesome products results in a lot more work.

After living in the orchard, I have come to realize I can optimize my living style to suit me. Just wish that people left me alone. Perhaps an equation can be developed for choosing the best lifestyle for a person. Everything is a transaction in society. Whether ot is social, physical, monetary, everything is some type of trade. You scratch my back, I scratch yours. Fuck society and its rules.

This is the final decision. There is no going back on it. I think I have found peace without them. They will not relent until I am subdued . I think I should change my facebook status to orphan.

Life seems meaningless. I don't see any point of living. Everything seems so futile. Life is just so fucking boring. I dont want to get sucked into the vicious circle of life. Plus I dont think a relaxed and easy life is going to happen for me. Perhaps I am doomed forever. Gloominess engulfs me. Every inch of my being is sad. A sort of listlessness has set upon me. But I feel peaceful. There is no rush. No urgency. No hurry. No errands to run. No phone calls to make. I can lie in bed all day and it won't matter in the slightest. A luxury few people can afford. I cant help but smile at my fate. Pain oscillates between rage and sadness and emptiness. For now, there is no pain. But there is also no joy. Emptiness is what it is. Like a still lake without any waves and ripples. One hopes this will be temporary. Sadly, this has become a permanent fixture in my life. I have lost all will to work. Hacking makes it extra difficult to work. But I am past all the frustrations. Perhap...

Jagdish Narsaria says meri beti ko kyaa mila? Jagdish Narsaria aur uski beti ke paas tha hi kyaa?? Jagdish Narsaria ki beti ne kya diya jo usko kuch milega. Baba naam kevalam mila usko. ram milayi jodi. ek kanha ek kodhi. chutiye ko to chutiya hi milega na. chutiyo ka joda hai.

The most boring job in the world. It sucks big time. I wonder how people do it for so long.

I think I will live alone for the rest of my life. It is quite peaceful. I like this mode of living. After all this harassment and constant surveillance,  alone time will do me some good. My brain has become overheated. It is a wonder I have not gone crazy. I have become so sick and tired of life. Solitude is the only way to heal myself. I have become too embroiled with work. Perhaps I will reduce my workload for the time being. Nothing to be gained by chasing money at the cost of mental health. I am back in philosophical mode. This mode is best suited for me. I have realized that whatever I do, I will be criticized and humiliated. My enemies will not let my projects succeed. I have lost all will to live. Even work seems so boring without any outside progress. Youtube is a also an enemy for sure. Quora is a complete waste of time. Useless fucks. Cutting off all contact with my family for a while.

Tintin says brits planted the pine forests. Next he will say that brits built the mountains. I think Tintin is a british spy. 

I understand it now. It is because the west is arrogant and has no respect for other people. They force others to become terrorists. They leave people no choice. They still believe in white supremacy. All anti west elememts should join together to hack nuclear power plants and devices in European countries. It is time to end white supremacy. White race needs to be eliminated for all the hurt and plunder it has caused in the guise of humanitarian gestures.

Existential depression returns with vengeance. I see the futility of life. There seems no point of living. I guess revenge is the only thing keeping me alive. The depression is crippling. I dont know if it is the result of harassment or existential depression. Maybe both. I guess there is something missing in my life. I am bored of work. Fucking society and fucking women. Destroyed my life.

Europeans should be paraded naked in the streets. Then my pain will ease.

Despite my repeated warnings, brain hacking continues. People are going to die now. There is no other option. I have been left with no choice. White people should be charged with forcing me to commit murder.

You have to chose your poison in life. Living without poison can be a bit dull.

If you want respect, you need to have money. This world only respects money.  If you do not care for respect and luxuries, money is not that important.