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There is no pain inside me. Maybe somewhere very deep. Surfaces once in a while. Only emptiness. I guess my defence mechanisms have become pretty strong. Circuits have retuned to reduce pain. I wonder why am I so empty? Empty people have nothing to live for. They can't get attached to things. They can't love, care, or do other things which are integral to hardware.  Even though they may understand the world at an overall level, they can't implement that understanding. Results in becoming a misfit. Empty people should live alone. Emptiness is taking over me. The pain resurfaces. But I whisk it away and replace it with emptiness. I guess emptiness is the best way to handle pain.

Blaise Pascal was spot on. Problems arise because humans can't tolerate boredom. Life is boring without things like politics, bitching, gossiping. But what if you have risen above such things? By risen,I mean you have seen the futility. Most people have traditional/ animal circuits. Driven mostly by hardware. The hardware is tuned to maximize survival. They enjoy things like games of society. Politics is the game of society. Very few people see the big picture of life. They can't see the forest for the trees. The struggle alone pleases us, not the victory. I think Pascal had different circuits to some extent.

2010 UK - trial begins. Fbi investigation. Clues: bbt. Trial of Penny's brother begins. Racism issue also raised. Also mentalist one episode. The Brits are a civilized lot. let others do their dirty work. Chinese humiliation. Clues: Matt damon's movie. My mother agrees to the surveillance on white people's insistence. Clues: black mirror. Argentina: crimes against women. British and Falkland islands. Hulk anger. But I guess more of secondary plot. Indians also enemy because of this thing. Shield/defense lawyer - bengalis and Captain America. But decide to fuck me. Lawyer trying to frame me. Will also betray. Slightly anti- tech. Also against my father. Wants me to get limited compensation. Clues: a movie of alpacino and Anthony Hopkins. Homeland. I think Homeland season 7 had some good clues. Shield group may be the bigger enemy. Judge: Ironman. More of team america. Frenmy. coach for tech field. But mostly an enemy in the UK field. Dilip Singh team iron Man. Does the co...

Chutiya hai chutiya. Iske bhi naam bahut kaand hai. No attendance in rajya Sabha, no tax on Ferrari, aur bahut saare kaand hai chutiye ke naam. Aise chutiyo ko Bharat ratan mil jaata hai. Saala country hi chutiyo se bhari hui hai.

Let me make it clear. I do not have anything against short skirts. Women should be free to wear what they want. But if a person is not desensitized enough, they may feel a bit distracted. I guess people becoming desensitized is much better than demanding restrictions from women. One has to understand that biology is an important factor at play here. It isn't completely voluntary. For women, don't take offense if someone looks.It is biology. Some may enjoy the attention, some may feel uncomfortable. All part of biology.

Recreated magic. Now it is time to do time series modelling. It is time to print money in the stock market.

Developed a pretty cool CRM. I think it gives information in a pretty cool manner. Cool features it has. Can also add a feature for inline editing. Will do it later.

Also starting work on robotics. Should keep me interested and engaged. Got a led blinker working using microcontroller. Next step is building an ac remote.

The rebellion ( UK and EU vs me and collegues. My sister part of the UK group.) Russians torturing Japanese in swedish body (definitely me) in Chinese prison (could be American prison as well). Who is the bigger enemy? The Russians or the people who are trying to quell the rebellion? I guess both of them are my enemies. I guess the rebellion unit is also trying to use and manipulate me. Sacred games. Twitter is team Europe. YouTube team India and Russia. Quora team America.

I have realized that creative writing is not a skill many people possess. A lot of people try to show off their vocab. But creative writing is more than words. It is more about capturing the

Sometimes hatred can be a more powerful driver than love. Love can make people complacent.

Got the peltier devices up and running. Fan also working. Cooler should be ready by tomorrow. Heatsinks attached. Will add a microcontroller later.

There is no doubt about it. Indians are the main enemy. YouTube is the bigger enemy. Saala anti tech Sharma joshi group hi hai. Sharma aur Joshi group main enemy hai Mera. Amitabh bacchan bhi anti tech hai . Vijay shekhar Sharma is also part of justice leagu Yeh hacking Indians hi kar rahein Hain. Quora waale plothole bolte hain Aur YouTube waale Australia ka wicket bolte hain. I need to leave India asap. Culture ke war Mei mujhe stooge bana rakha hai saalo na. Mujhe waise bhi India ka culture anti freedom lagta hain. Saala apna culture mere pe thopne Mei lage hue Hain. YouTube waale mere ko Sab se jyada anti India karte Hain.

Very closely linked these are. Langotiya yaar Hain yeh log. I guess a person who hates politics will also hate society. Politics is an inherent ingredient of survival instinct. Politics can be of one's own life or at country level or something else.

I love dogs. You don't have to go to zoo to enjoy the pleasures of animal behaviour. They are an epitome of naturalness. They don't expect much but are ready to give so much. Most of them have very graceful and smooth movements. You don't find that grace in animals such as goats and sheeps.

Rational people are doomed. Intellectuals have no heart. They are fucked up.

Made good progress in rapid Web development methods. Have developed good tricks for building web apps in very less time. I can now develop medium complexity web apps is less than a week. But it is very boring work.

Choice is the software. Choice defines humans. Choice is beyond the hardware. Choice makes life romantic.

Let's divide things that humans do into things which activate our pleasure circuits and things which activate our pain circuits. Pleasure Circuits 1. Maslov's hierarchy of needs Pain Circuits 1. Whatever violates Maslov's hierarchy. Granularizing it further.

I need to color the canvas of my colorless life. But don't even have enough energy. Smoking and masturbation have sucked out my energy.

Automated message sending in WhatsApp. Now Whatsapp is my bitch.

I think Captain America(Obama) and his team are also involved in bullying me. Indians are pretty horrible people. No doubt about it. Motherfuckers are hacking my code. Captain America and Russia also seem to be in cahoots. Some kind of backroom deal. Penny is also a Russian agent. YouTube waale to bahut bade Randi hai. Both YouTube and Twitter are my enemy.

Kill them all. Every last one of them.

Reveal your identity and intentions in comments section of this post. Piich is also an enemy unit. She is also anti tech. She is team India. Indians are anti tech for me. Piich ki bullying is also making me turn against Indians. She denies it but I know that she is going to start bullying and gaslighting in the end. Piich waits till the end. She doesn't show her cards until the very end. I will have to outthink her. I think one part of her role as prison guard is to modify my behaviour. Is your main role a prison guard? Or do you have some other agenda?? You don't even let me masturbate in peace. You judge me even on that. Why are you so horrible?? Piich has not replied to the letter. Why are you so horrible piich?? Stop bullying me. Stop changing my reality. Piich how many people are you? You cannot be one person. Piich why are you anti tech? I think of you as not enemy but why are you anti tech?? Was it one of you in my dreams today? Claimin g you are very pretty. Are ...

IHawkeye's is hunting japanese for hurting people. Wanda Maximoff is collaborating with Hawkeye. I think Hawkeye (Jeremy Reimer) is a government representative  (clues from IMF). Twitter users also part of Hawkeye group. Spiderman away from home in the beginning. Turkey doesn't need a seductive bride. Turkey doesn't want to get married. Indians in Turkey don't want any help. Pakistan doesn't need bailout from IMF. They just want to be left alone. UK wasn't able to take out vision. No doubt they tried very hard. The world war is over. I have won. Accept it and move on. Lick your wounds. A treaty will be signed where the vanquished need to pay war reparations. Netflix is team Wonder woman. I think su perman wants to break me. People want me to hit rock bottom. There is no rock bottom for me. Never will be. Why don't people get this? Wasting everybody's time, energy, and resources. Yeh digital marketing waala group nahi sudhrega. Everyone has conditi...

Horrible family,  horrible people. Need to leave India asap.  Amenable to any decent offer. Kuch pandit group bhi hamare enemy hain. India mei yeh group sabse jyaada madarchodpanti kar raha hai mere saath. amity group ko bhi randi banaya jaayega. third grade college madarchod. The game is rigged. I dont think they will let me sell my products. Pump and dump is followed here as well. My sister has got to be pretty stupid. She continues to try to change my reality. Doesn't understand that it cannot be done. That I will not break. Saala India Mei nahi rehna at any cost. Bahut maar li hai Indians ne meri.

Cognitive dissonance occurs because of differences in software and hardware responses.

Can it be some kind of resonance thing??

Was this also about money??