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There is no pain inside me. Maybe somewhere very deep. Surfaces once in a while. Only emptiness. I guess my defence mechanisms have become pretty strong. Circuits have retuned to reduce pain. I wonder why am I so empty? Empty people have nothing to live for. They can't get attached to things. They can't love, care, or do other things which are integral to hardware.  Even though they may understand the world at an overall level, they can't implement that understanding. Results in becoming a misfit. Empty people should live alone. Emptiness is taking over me. The pain resurfaces. But I whisk it away and replace it with emptiness. I guess emptiness is the best way to handle pain.

Blaise Pascal was spot on. Problems arise because humans can't tolerate boredom. Life is boring without things like politics, bitching, gossiping. But what if you have risen above such things? By risen,I mean you have seen the futility. Most people have traditional/ animal circuits. Driven mostly by hardware. The hardware is tuned to maximize survival. They enjoy things like games of society. Politics is the game of society. Very few people see the big picture of life. They can't see the forest for the trees. The struggle alone pleases us, not the victory. I think Pascal had different circuits to some extent.

2010 UK - trial begins. Fbi investigation. Clues: bbt. Trial of Penny's brother begins. Racism issue also raised. Also mentalist one episode. The Brits are a civilized lot. let others do their dirty work. Chinese humiliation. Clues: Matt damon's movie. My mother agrees to the surveillance on white people's insistence. Clues: black mirror. Argentina: crimes against women. British and Falkland islands. Hulk anger. But I guess more of secondary plot. Indians also enemy because of this thing. Shield/defense lawyer - bengalis and Captain America. But decide to fuck me. Lawyer trying to frame me. Will also betray. Slightly anti- tech. Also against my father. Wants me to get limited compensation. Clues: a movie of alpacino and Anthony Hopkins. Homeland. I think Homeland season 7 had some good clues. Shield group may be the bigger enemy. Judge: Ironman. More of team america. Frenmy. coach for tech field. But mostly an enemy in the UK field. Dilip Singh team iron Man. Does the co...

Chutiya hai chutiya. Iske bhi naam bahut kaand hai. No attendance in rajya Sabha, no tax on Ferrari, aur bahut saare kaand hai chutiye ke naam. Aise chutiyo ko Bharat ratan mil jaata hai. Saala country hi chutiyo se bhari hui hai.

Let me make it clear. I do not have anything against short skirts. Women should be free to wear what they want. But if a person is not desensitized enough, they may feel a bit distracted. I guess people becoming desensitized is much better than demanding restrictions from women. One has to understand that biology is an important factor at play here. It isn't completely voluntary. For women, don't take offense if someone looks.It is biology. Some may enjoy the attention, some may feel uncomfortable. All part of biology.

Recreated magic. Now it is time to do time series modelling. It is time to print money in the stock market.

Developed a pretty cool CRM. I think it gives information in a pretty cool manner. Cool features it has. Can also add a feature for inline editing. Will do it later.

Also starting work on robotics. Should keep me interested and engaged. Got a led blinker working using microcontroller. Next step is building an ac remote.

The rebellion ( UK and EU vs me and collegues. My sister part of the UK group.) Russians torturing Japanese in swedish body (definitely me) in Chinese prison (could be American prison as well). Who is the bigger enemy? The Russians or the people who are trying to quell the rebellion? I guess both of them are my enemies. I guess the rebellion unit is also trying to use and manipulate me. Sacred games. Twitter is team Europe. YouTube team India and Russia. Quora team America.

I have realized that creative writing is not a skill many people possess. A lot of people try to show off their vocab. But creative writing is more than words. It is more about capturing the