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They have been fucked so bad. They try to find the tiniest issue in everything. I pity them. So much of their effort has been wasted. I have fucked everyone black and blue. The only thing they are left with is mindgames. They dont have any other arrow left in their quiver. Mindgames are not going to have any effect on me anymore. It is all futile. I have come out on top. You have been defeated. Accept it. Whatever I had to endure will be inflicted on you. Plus more.

I think some of my problems have been caused due to monal narsaria and her father.

Motherfuckers hack everything. I think these people believe that money and career are everything. The dignity of a person is nothing for them. They will learn it the hard way when thousands of people die at my hands. I think Americans also believe the same. I should file a cybercrime report against google and barclays. Add defamation and mental harassment charges. Then these motherfuckers will learn a lesson.

John Cena - Kapil Vohra

I reiterate my commitment to accepting no money. Give your charity to someone who needs it. I dont need it. I wonder why youtube shows me lifestyle videos. I intend to live in mud huts, a very simple life by the standards of most people. Why would I need money? I have begun to enjoy the simple life to some extent. But revenge is necessary. There is no meaning to my life except revenge. Britain has to be humiliated. Barclays has to be destroyed beyond recognition. Nepalis have to die. My family has to die.  I have all my life.   I will kill people randomly. Perhaps only then will my pain ebb. All I have to do is wait and prepare. I think other European countries are also involved.  I think they are still under the illusion. I intend to retain the moral highground for justifying my future crimes. 

One group wants to humiliate me monetarily. The other wants to humiliate in terms of tech knowledge. I am fucking both of them.

Built a site in a very short time with quality content. Took about 6-8 hours if you remove time wasted due to hacking. Fucked them pretty bad. Take it in your ass motherfuckers. Enough with web development. I keep getting distracted. Focusing on NLIDB.

Every company is a leading company. I wonder if dictionaries need to change the definition.

How can I live with people who maligned me, tortured me, and engaged in spreading false information about me? There is no going back to this world. The whole world was complicit in some way and I do not intend to have any contact with any of them.

I am renouncing all my rights in my family property. It is good practice not to break bread with the enemy. My father should donate my share (if he intends to leave any) to researchers in hydroponic farming. Specifically low cost hydroponic farming. I think current methods using pvc pipes are too expensive for poor people. I am sure low cost methods have the potential to change the world.

It is mainly about knowledge of syntax and steps. Not much logic. I think I can build sites of intermediate complexity.

Talks about my brother have started doing rounds. Fuck him and his inlaws. His overly sensitive wife cleared CA in more than 7 attempts. That too I think probably by jugaad. And these people have the audacity to judge me.

Building a hotel booking website. Should be done in a day. Charging about 8k as development charges. Pretty cheap but not bad for a day's work. Going forward I will not care about the work. It has bought me nothing but misery. No one appreciates good work. Make it time pass. Collect money. And relax.

I think I suffer from mood swings. Will probably get myself checked. I think India and UK are involved in fucking me. Kill everyone. I feel depressed without smoking.

First draft of the weight loss site is done. Something to show for selling. Moving on to NLIDB.

I wonder how long will these people keep up the charade. They keep thinking that I will break and they will have a chance. I have beaten the m black and blue.  They have been defeated so badly. These people are hanging by very thin threads. They try to twist the meaning of each and every word to start a game of illusion. Useless fucks. They use all sorts of tricks for confidence erosion. K eeping my morale high  is a tough battle.  I have concluded that no one has my best interests at heart. I have to live a solo life in this world. Hacking continues. They resort to hacking whenever things start going against them. Now they have hacked QLO and introduced bugs just to harass me. Another confidence erosion trick. I think the plan was to humiliate me, make me feel worthless and send me back to my family or UK. Every effort was made so that I dont get into other fields. It is a pity all their efforts have been wasted. It will haunt them forever.

I am thinking of launching an analytics, AI, and automation company. Minimal work will be done.

The curse of technology.

Couldnt sleep the entire night. Cannot focus. Feeling depressed. I need to simplify the codes. Complicated codes are more prone to errors.

One of the most boring creatures to have ever existed. talks about rutherford experiments on casual walks. I pity the man who is going to marry her.I suppose she is one of the reasons I hate women.

Moral codes of people can vary based on their environnent, upbringinging, and circumstances. Legal code levels the platform and forces everyone to adhere to the same code irrespective of their moral code. Moral code will always contain a lot of gray areas whereas legal code mostly deals in black and white.

I don't think so. In fact I am willing to lay a wager on this matter. 

It was a big mistake joining barclays. Useless company filled with useless people. Infact horrible people. Praveen Sharma and Navneet Shivhare should be killed. Dont know anything. Useless fucks. I probably learnt more than what they will learn in their entire time there. Don't even know how to calculate RWA in a downturn. In fact even Kapil Vohra probably didn't know how to calculate RWA in a simple manner. And these assholes have the audacity to challenge me and say that I dont know what I am doing. Kill model monitoring team.  Barclays hires people without relevant experience. They don't even have the courtesy to train people. They expect that since you are an engineer, you can learn the work. People have to learn everything themselves. Asking questions is considered taboo. Managers will consider it an affront if you ask questions. How the fuck is one expected to clear their doubts? Horrible culture. Everyone suffers. The company suffers, the employee suffers. Althoug...

 i think google is very arrogant about its nlp capabilities. Sling performs decently in most of the cases. However, it can get pretty weird at times.

I think Praveen Sharma belongs to a poor family. These people like showing off and are jealous of others. I think I have given the perfect reply to such people. He should read my book on credit risk and if he cant afford one, I will give one to him for free. Ask if the asshole also wants a book on probability. Also free for him.

If hacking persists, I will have no choice but to launch a legal case on Barclays and others. This is final warning. Mend your ways. It is high time this harassment is stopped. I dont care if they are in cahoots with my family. My family will suffer alike. Anyone perjuring themselves will have to face consequences. Case on barclays is finalized. my hotspot hacking was the last straw.

There is competition everywhere. Even a seed competes with another seed. This is the law of nature. There is no room for weakness in this world. Weak people need to get their act together or perish.

Life is suffering only when you keep reacting to it. Reacting intensifies the activation of pleasure and pain circuits. The guiding force of these circuits is survival instinct. This force is constantly at conflict with others in this world because of competition. Hence, pain circuits are activated quite often. Just being tempers the circuits. The troughs and crests are smoothened by just being. It is a life choice. Some people may enjoy the fluctuations. Some may like it smooth. People like me who have their circuits worn out will benefit from just being. Advances in all aspects of life means that we can optimize and customize these circuits. Perhaps advances in neurosciences will lead to the developement of individually customized mathematical models. Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.

बड़ा हुआ तो क्या हुआ, जैसे पेड़ खजूर | पंथी को छाया नहीं, फल लागे अति दूर | I dont care for respect. However, I prefer not to be disrespected. Doesnt matter anyways. These people have to die.

Neuron firing mechanisms warrant a detailed study.

I am still embroilled in worldly affairs and the vicious cycle of desires. I need to break free. Become unencumbered and burdenless. The desire free state comes and goes. I need to make it permanent. When I look at the past year, I feel it has probably done me more good than bad. Agreed that my stress levels were very high but it made me realize that I dont need money to live. It deepened my faith in a moneyless life.

Continuing with the doing nothing policy, I am starting water fasting on Sundays.

The war is ongoing. Man is slowly and steadily conquering various aspects of nature. Will nature hit back? Man has hacked nature to suit his purpose. Nature no longer reigns supreme in most of the cases. Therefore old laws of nature do not apply to humans in as it is format.

I am going back to literature. I am more or less done with movies. It is mostly old wine in new bottle.

I do think I have a journalist inside me. I see things objectively. This is perhaps the most important trait of journalists.

I will explore all the different possiblities of human existence. Physical, metaphysical, religious, spiritual and all other frames will be considered. I hope this will give me some clarity on the objective of human life.

I think my sister wants to rehabilitate me. When will she realize that she is mistaken for thinking that I want to be rehabilitated? I feel fine here. A little bored but it doesn't matter much. I think a lot of efforts are made so that I dont criticize the west in any way. Save your troubles. I never forgive and I dont have stockholm's syndrome. There is no point wasting your energy on me. I dont need your charity. Spend it on someone who actually needs it. I think I have realized there is no point of hardwork. I wish US and UK left me alone. Also Indians. I think it is the good cop bad cop routine. I never forgive. Work with me at your own peril. It is just the way I am built. Cant do anything about it. You did what you thought was justified. I will do what I think is justified. They have realized that I will not break. I think the only option for them is to try to rehabilitate me. I will deny them this pleasure. I will resist any rehabilitation simply out of spite. I may r...

These things make me feel alive. Feels like there is something else to experience. After getting fit, I want to live the life of a homeless person for a few years. I am partly inspired by George Orwell's tales. Sometimes I feel all I need in life is thrill.

Pretty good. It has got a much better collection than hotstar.

Doesnt feel that way to me.

I think it is time to get involved with other people in this field. It is too vast a field to deal singlehandedly. I will be happy to lend a helping hand to anybody working in the AI NLP field. You are welcome to join me in developing NLP solutions for the industry.

The laws of human nature can be derived from survival instinct and its manifestations. Laws of human nature hold true. Not unlike laws of physics.

I think Indians are behind the anti tech movement. Saddens my heart. I do not wish to associate with Indians. It is a complete leg pulling culture. Horrible people. Cant accept people better than them. Recent events have led me to conclude that Indians too are horrible people guided purely by survival instinct. People get uneasy if I watch English series. So pathetic. Very narrow minded people.

I dont like it very much. Too intense for my taste. Too much politics.

I enjoy giving them breathing space only to fuck them later. I allow them a glitter of hope and then trounce it mercilessly. I wait for some time before giving final touches. I pity them. I see their ugly heads starting to rear again. I will have to be more direct in fucking them. I suppose direct humiliation should do the trick.

Some anger stems from inability to control a situation.

I am not convinced about the online marketplace model. Flipkart is a case in point. I dont think late stage investors really made much money. Most of the other companies have perished as predicted by me earlier. Even with such high internet penetration, these companies are running huge losses as of now. They are trying to bleed each other to death. Analysts will do an s-curve analysis. They say that once adoption becomes more mainstream, we will see an upsurge. What if the customers become aware of their dirty tricks? And is the entry barrier really that huge? Is the first mover advantage going to remain with these companies ? I remain skeptical. Even if it works, it is not going to be a huge money spinner. They will have to figure out alternate revenue streams. Technology can come to its rescue. AI and automation can drive down costs and increase revenues. We will have to wait and watch. But dont expect it to be a money spinner. I think I have been proven right till now. I think ...

I have lost all desire to work. Nihilism dominates me. Plus I have already won a moral victory. Dont feel like I need to prove anything.

Is a life of misery and helplessnss really worth living? If this is all that this life has to offer, why dont a lot of people opt out? Is it the fear of physical pain? Is it because of religious beliefs? Is it because of loved ones? Is it hope of a better life? I should conduct a survey. A lot of people at some point must have tried to opt out. I would be lying if I said I haven't thought about it. I think I have figured out everything about life. There is nothing else left to do. I have been vindicated. I have proved them wrong. I have more or less won a moral victory. I am estranged from my family (that will not change), everybody in my life has betrayed me (I cannot forgive them). In most of the cases, I find people are intellectually inferior and cannot understand me. Perhaps I am too good for a mere earthly life. But I need to inflict all the pain back with compound interest. Probably revenge is the only motive keeping me in the game. 1. Why do you want to live? 2. Why d...

After much deliberation, I reaffirm my commitment to a money less life. But I would need free sex. I dont need anything else. I dont feel like working hard and I dont even need anything. What is the point of doing anything if I dont need anything? However, I need revenge and cant live without it. I am amazed by the naivety of quorans and these people. They keep assuming that I will sell out. My revenge threats are not for extortion. They will happen anyway. Have you not understood me till now?  I only ask for a few people. Hand them to me on a platter and no one else has to suffer. Otherwise a lot of people will have to undergo unnecessary suffering.

Have you all got my message? I intend to retain my right to free speech. Fuck you all. Do whatever you can.

Freedom from bondages. Do what you like. Personally and professionally. No responsibilities.

A device replicating plant food producing mechanisms will definitely change the world. It must be pretty difficult to make. I think we are yet to understand the exact mechanisms behind plant food production. Trolls will say that we have trees for that. A device will probably be a thousand times more efficient than trees.

Dont feel like working. Rain depresses me. Will work later once the rain is over. Simply doing nothing is also relaxing. Trolled my facebook moderator. It is fun. Fucked one more local. Used him to convey my stand and then discarded him. It was fun. Asshole was trying to put words in my mouth as usual. I feel sorry for these people. Getting fucked over repeatedly doesnt satisfy them. They come for more. I rinse and repeat. Every such fucking establishes my superiority; the very opposite of what they are trying to do. I enjoy riling these people. The only person going to come out victorious of this fight is me. Accept this and your misery will be reduced. I will keep fucking these people till they accept defeat. Fucked him again. Was trying to put words in my mouth. Rinse and repeat.

4 categories giving a possible sixteen combinations ( 2 exp 4). The 4 categories are: How they focus their attention or get their energy (extraversion/introversion) How they perceive or take in information (sensing/intuition) How they prefer to make decisions (thinking/feeling) How they orient themselves to the external world (judgment/perception) It does make sense to some extent. I feel like an INTJ/ INFJ

Why is sex such a taboo? It is a biological function. Is sex such a problem because it reminds humans of their basic, core animal nature? I think that one of the important reasons is that it signifies lack of control over desires. Lack of control in general can be detrimental to survival. An equanimous and balanced mind will probably not feel very horny now and then. But should we supress it?

Everything is overrated.

I am going to take a more dispassionate and laidback approach towards work. I feel that I dont really love working. I probably dont even love tech. Maybe I am just curious. I got into engineering because I was probably smart. Didnt study much , didn't attend any classes but still passed all the exams. Probably didn't enjoy it. Maybe some other forces were at play. I dont really need money. I can live without it. However, I cannot live without revenge. There is no other way around it. I wish Ananda Marga people left me alone. I do not wish to associate with them. Whenever I do some drama, they call me. I intend to devote a lot of time to body building and pursuing revenge. I have all the time in the world. The hackers will have to pay. Barclays and EXL employees will pay. UK will pay. Nepalis will pay. Quora trolls will pay. I should also make some of my family members suffer but I will probably let it slide. These people have no option but to keep me under surveillance for ...

The book explains altruism from a genetic point of view . The thought experiment of Green Bearded Man is said to have been successfully confirmed in certain life forms. But could this also be explained by neurobiological circuits?

6th May Doing nothing is very relaxing. Clears your head. Every Sunday, I will relax by doing almost nothing. 13th May Doing nothing has given me a new perspective. It is such a relief. 15th May Everything is a vicious circle, a sine wave, an endless cycle of gratification and misery, a repetitive play of pleasure and pain circuits. Life is so meaningless; at least in this worldly frame. It is better to be lazy and stress free. I am so disillusioned by everything. Just dont feel like doing anything at all. All my desires have been sapped away. What to do?

Programming is also easy. It can be challenging at times but mostly it is easy. Maybe I am gifted.

It saddens my heart to see my friends betraying me. I am terminating all relationships with such people forever.

How many people will choose the right way over an easy way? Right in terms of general consensus. There is probably no absolute right.

Some people are driven by aesthetic pleasure, some by comfort, some by herd mentality, some by showoff, some by philosophy. What am I driven by? Comfort and philosophy. Comfort more in terms of laziness. Cant work hard. Cant take anymore stress.

Everything seems completely pointless. Sometimes I feel a very strong revulsion towards all human beings. I think I am damaged beyond repair. I feel extremely exhausted.

All this time has shown me that I cannot work hard. Hard work is overrated.

I think men should also start filing more sexual assault charges against women. It is high time women's subtle advances are taken seriously. I think there is a double standard here. Holding hands, brushing their boobs, rubbing their shoulders etc. are some of the sexual advances made by women. If a woman makes a sexual advance, it is not considered assault. Why?

Figured out a decent way to parse sling. Probably not the best way but it will do for the time being. Small issue of sling and windows. I will generate the queries on PythonAnywhere and run it on my system. Other solution is to install django in the venv and pass sling output through an api call. yet another one is to use neo4j on PA. I will go with the first way for the time being. The parsing code has become a bit weird. Will finish it anyways. Will figure out a cleaner way later. It has become fucking messy.

A lot of philosophy can be simplified if different frames of references are considered. Lets name them physical, metaphysical, and combined. Something tangible in one frame may be abstract in another. This will also help in reconciling various ideologies.

It boils down to pleasure and pain circuits. One can optimize the equation by distancing themselves from sources of pain.

Sometimes thinking after masturbation or sex is much more clearer. Perhaps the limbic system takes a backseat. I think I am suffering from existential crisis. There is no purpose of my life. I feel everything just goes on in a cycle. Nothin g anyone does really matters. The ending of the series Wire captures it nicely. There is nothing to look forward to in my life. The pain cannot be forgotten. I will probably never be able to move on in my life. I do not feel traumatized but dejected at the state of human affairs. How manipulative is this society? Everyone has lied and manipulated for their benefit. The world is completely screwed up. I wonder who gave these people the right to play with my life.

Kafka's metamorphosis is pretty good.

Mcnulty and Lester are awesome. I can relate a bit to McNulty. I liked the last bit. He was the black sheep. The permanent pariah. He asked no quarter of the bosses and none was given. He learned no lessons. He acknowledged no mistakes. He was as stubborn a Mick as ever stumbled out of the Northeast parishes to take a patrolman's shield. He brooked no authority, he did what he wanted to do and he said what he wanted to say and, in the end, he gave you the clearances. He was natural police.

They look pretty simple. Have learnt the basics. Time to parse stuff. Parsed syntanet output. Looks pretty good. Found an easy solution. Will extract triplets. I can code. This is probably the only time I have used recursion apart from calculating factorials.

I think some of this has also got to do with my earlier comments about Indian politicians and some others. I stand behind my earlier comments even if they were leading questions. However, if my statements were twisted or reported out of context, I bear no responsibility for such things. Praveen Sharma has been especially involved in mud-slinging. He should die. Some people have expressed their interest in knowing my views. They are welcome to read the blog.