On Thinking

Sometimes thinking after masturbation or sex is much more clearer. Perhaps the limbic system takes a backseat. I think I am suffering from existential crisis. There is no purpose of my life. I feel everything just goes on in a cycle. Nothing anyone does really matters. The ending of the series Wire captures it nicely.

There is nothing to look forward to in my life. The pain cannot be forgotten. I will probably never be able to move on in my life. I do not feel traumatized but dejected at the state of human affairs. How manipulative is this society? Everyone has lied and manipulated for their benefit. The world is completely screwed up.

I wonder who gave these people the right to play with my life.