Toofargone

Fuck world war and everything. Main enemies are Indians. I will leave India at the very first opportunity. Indians will not let me live in peace. Horrible people they are.  Indians are acting as tools for foreigners.

A new generation of slaves is in the making. Slaves to social media. Life is so worthless that freedom doesnt really matter. Because that too is worthless. You cannot compare infinities. Similarly you cannot compare things which are worthless. The emptiness is taking over me. But if you look at the problem in a narrower frame of reference, things change. Neuroscience is going to bring the greatest change to the course of human history. It will completely change how we experience life.

Still continuing with the hacking. How low will these people stoop to demoralize me? Thats why I say humanity is truly horrible.

The problem is that I have a very independent mind. There is almost no element of herd mentality in me.

Sisyphus is tired of the loop. Sisyphus feels exhausted due to the hot weather. Weakness permeates every inch of Sisyphus's body. Sisyphus is in contemplative mode. He ruminates over the meaninglessness. A smug satisfaction comes over him as he explains his reconciliation theory to his friend. This will do. He crowns himself the King of Philosophy. Soon he will have a long introduction like Daenerys Targareyan. He doesn't want to work on the project today. The fun is only in the chase. The chase is almost over. But he forces himself to work on the project. He has to dot the i's and cross the t's.  Sisyphus realizes he has psycopathic tendencies. He is not like everyone else. The realization that he is Sisyphus has made sisyphus a bit more free. Sisyphus has moved one more stone. It is anyways better to die than live in India. Sisyphus has become disillusioned with life. There is just no fun in life. Life is just so fucking boring.  Sisyphus doesnt find joy i...

I am preparing to discard the narcissist. What are the steps needed to discard the narcissist?

Google is in my brother's camp. Youtube waale also practice pump and dump. It is not a fair game. Completely rigged against me.  Everything  is manipulated. PayTM is also in the same gang. Yeh saara Sharma group hai. Meera and Jagdish also in the same gang. Youtube bhi same gang ka part hai. Youtube will start bullying me to reduce my confidence. Even though I know I am on the right track, they will try to detract me. Became an intermediate level developer. I guess now I can be considered mainstream. Anti tech to Indians hi hain. Westerners are pro tech. I feel I am also being used in the fight of countries and families. Delhi is definitely my enemy.

You cannot change a person. Any change whatsoever is temporary.  It is extremely difficult to overcome the hardwiring.  It is always better to fit a person with their matching surroundings and not the other way around. Trying to fit into non matching surroundings is not going to be a very fruitful endeavour.

The mental battle against yourself is the toughest battle.

Lions are CSK. Dhoni is team lion. Lions are numbers stuff. Tiger is web development etc. Bear is more advanced stuff. Crocodiles Naggar waale lagte hain. Can be Barclays people also. Sacred games.

I dont enjoy skill based work. I enjoy problem solving work. I dont value skills a lot. I value problem solving ability. Skills are easy to find. Problem solving ability is hard to find.

Got sidetracked. Back to investment advisory and portfolio management solution. I guess it can be classified as robo adviser. There are only a few companies doing robo advisery. Almost done with Rajverma's work. Web development sucks out the life out of me. Even though friend's continue to betray me, I guess there is no solution but to move forward. Everyone wants a finished product. No body is willing to help. This is too much work.

One aspect is realizing the loop. I think people who only enjoy the chase are more likely to suffer from existential depression. When you chase something, you feel the fun while chasing. But as soon as the chase is over, the depression gets around. Over a period of time, you realize that the whole process is an endless loop. It is just a repetitive triggering of pleasure and pain circuits. Once you see the big picture, the existential depression becomes severe. The final realization is that we are all Sisyphus. I am definitely Sisyphus. Just being is realizing that we are all Sisyphus. 

I dont think you can find a family that is stupidier than mine. It should be awarded the worst family in the world status. I think most of the problems could have been averted had they not been so stupid. Shruti Agarwal should be awarded the most horrible sister ever award.

Do all my enemies accept defeat? They are not left with any face saving measure. They have been destroyed completely. All their efforts have been in vain. Do they want to be humiliated more? What is worse than invading Russia in winters?? Attacking amit on data skils is the only thing worse. Pay up 100 million dollars for defamation, harassment, and torture. Or everybody involved goes to jail. the ball is in your court. I dont really need even a single penny. But I cannot forget or forgive the torture.

Feeling tired and exhausted. Killing is the only solution.

Not sure really. I dont think it is possible to tune a person. I dont think I have changed a lot except for developing a deep sense of disillusionment with the world and life. Perhaps I was born depressed. I guess Camus was spot on with his choice of words. Should I kill myself or have a cup of coffee should be declared the greatest line ever. If you look at the bigger picture, human existence can be likened to the fate of Sisyphus to some extent. I still havent been able to find any meaning in life. I guess taking it easy is the way to go. Practicing just being is the only solution.

It was Barzinni all along.Who is Barzini??

I have solved investing. Finally all the moving parts have come together. Will refine it a little bit to make it more intuitive and fluid.

During elections, I suppose people should be allowed to vote for the issues they want the government to work on. For final weighing the issue, some weight should be given to the amount of tax being paid by the person.

Life is so boring. A quote reads. Adventure is not outside man. It is within. Is this true??

I need to leave India for sure. Too tired of this country. saala rajasthani to sabse jyada bully kartein hain. anti tech pura hai yeh group. pata nahi saale kya chahte hain. I see no other option.Indians are horrible people who will continue to bully me. Ek sharma group hai aur ek agarwal group hai (shayad goyal group agarwal ka part hai). sharma group mei jagdish narsaria aur meera hai. agarwal group mei mera baap hai. i think agarwal group has been assigned a lower rank in this fight. pandits and their superiority complex. agarwal groups lions lagte hain. tigers sharma group hai. deepmala bhi lion group hai. Ultimately, I am the king of all these groups. Leaving India is the only solution to escape the relentless bullying. Horribly treating me Indians are. Number one priorirty is to stay away from my horrible family. They are one of the main reasons of so many of my troubles.

There is no doubt that I have got the worst family in the world.

Tired from all the working and smoking. Life is just so fucking boring. Even making a calculator can be tiring. Productivity has gone down significantly. It is a burnout situation. There are so many things to consider.  But I have become the king of simplifying investments. I have simplified it like no one else.

I still dont get it. Is it only humiliation or something else? Dont they realise by now that it doesnt matter to me anymore? Simply wasting my time. Monal Narsaria ke agent jyaada marwa rahe hain bahar waalo ke comparison mei.

Dilip Singh Monal Narsaria ka bhi agent hai. Jagdish Narsaria labor hai. padhe likhe logo ke saath baithne ke layak nahi hai woh.  dilip singh se mujra karwao.

I am bringing marvel into DC. Also mixing bollywood with hollywood.

It is final.The last hacking incident has left me no choice. I am going to file a case for 100 million dollars.

I will convert to Islam in the next few days. Will try to get a pakistani citizenship. At least then my family will let me be free.

Life is not really fair. I have realized this now. But I do intend to make it fair. Even if I have to kill.

What does beauty have to do with evolutionary advantage?Is being beautiful only relevant in humans or is it relevant in other animals as well? Maybe beauty conveys some underlying qualities which have an evolutionary advantage. But what could those qualities be?? Health seems a likely candidate.

Automated portfolio recommender is in progress. Results look promising. Implemented in python. cool stuff it is.

Engage unemployed people in building aeroponic and hydroponic kits. Raw materials can be things like wood, bamboo, small bricks made using solar furnace. There are a lot of low cost raw materials available locally.Some can be recycled. Some can be donated. This will result in low cost solutions and solve food problem.

When the parameters of a model are varied, the curve changes shape. This leads to change in the total error. This error plotting for multiple set of parameters results in the cost function. L1 and L2 regularization are used depending on dataset. L1 will ignore outliers while curve fitting because the error is the absolute difference whereas this error is magnified in L2 where the error is squared. Gradient descent works on the differentiation method. Start with negative gradient and keep moving downhill until you can no longer go down hill. Intuitively, you can say that a convex function has a global minima where the derivative/gradient (tangent to the curve) is 0. Some cost functions are convex whereas some are non convex. Convex functions have only global minima.There is no local minima. Partial derivatives are also used. In case there are no local optimas, initialization doesnt matter. In case there are local optimas, initialization will matter as the solution can get stuck in a...

Give people good health care.But at the same time, give them an option to die.Euthanasia should be legalized.

Have become very stressed. Too much work to do. Too much commute.

I need to leave India asap. Horrible country with horrible people. modi bhi aurato ka agent hai. horrible people truly. fucking egoistic people.

Cutting off all friends who are negative and toxic. I have had enough of them. There is no point of having toxic people in life. They just bring you down. Horrible family.

It is for sure. By association microsoft is also my enemy.

Indian politicians are definitely involved in the bullying. There are enough hints. kuch to khaasi karne waale bjp ke workers hain. I think my comments against corruption and other things has not gone down very well with the politicians. Fuckers are demoralizing me. My friends are also involved. Fucking useless people politicians. Bullying continues. Gaslighting continues. I think they will only stop once my reality is altered. Horrible people Indians. it is safe to say that indians are the most horrible people in the world.

Awareness is the software which overrides the default hardware of survival instinct.

Why do we treat animals as weaker than us?? Because it is the law of nature. Because it is the way nature works. Same has been applicable to women. But changing dynamics are changing things.

Feeling depressed. Dont like living in Delhi. Americans are horrible people. Sometimes I feel like killing people.  UK and Europeans are bad, US not good, Indians worst. The world is truly horrible. I cant even imagine how horrible this world has been to me.

He is a british agent. Neha ka agent. 

Commuting tires me. Am not really used to commuting. I dont think I can ever commute as much as a typical delhite. I guess some wiring issue. My body just doesnt respond well to commuting.

A good site for people who intend to live as bachelors. I for one have made up my mind to live as a bachelor.