On Justice

If my behaviour was crossing boundaries, then gas tampering person should go to jail for attempt to murder. This will be justice. Otherwise it is hypocrisy. 

Hypocrisy all around. Why shouldn't these people take responsibility for their actions? Why should I be held responsible for reacting to a situation which was created by them in the first place? My reaction was just a response to a severely aggravating situation. I had ignored a lot of infractions but this was the last straw. The level to which they had stooped had me very riled up. Heads need to roll. Apology will not suffice. If heads dont roll, I will choose the punishment. Proportionate to what was inflicted on me. 

Madarchodo lagao brainchip aur poocho lodhu maharaj ki jai gaata tha ki nahi. Fucking horrible people. Ya mere mei hi check kar lo. Pata chal jaayega. Yeh sab ke liye kaun accountable hoga. Maine to abhi kuch ginwaya hi nahi hai. Tum logo ne ek ek cheez ginwa di. Choti se choti cheez ginwa di. 

I am not associating with the movement at any cost. You are not supposed to use anything at any cost. Tum celebrities log apna woke culture follow karo. Mai apna karoonga. lets go our separate ways. Enough is enough. I may still go ahead with attempt to murder charge. This is final. I am filing the charge. No other way. Otherwise this torture will continue endlesslessly. There will be no end to it. I have no option left. How dare you people do such things? How did you gather the audacity to put my life on risk just to have some laughs? It is because you feel you are above law. There can be no reason other than arrogance for this behavior. Blinded by arrogance and your invincibility. What justice were you serving by tampering the gas and putting my life in risk? What could be the possible social justice behind this? None. Just your arrogance. Fucking horrible people do horrible things and when I react to it I am crucified. If justice is so dear to you, you should go to jail voluntarily for attempted murder. He should have stopped pouring hot water immediately. The joke should have been stopped that very moment. But it was allowed to continue further without any consideration to risk for life. It was my common sense that I didn't proceed with further hot water pouring sensing something else might be off. Warriors of justice. Please do justice and deposit yourself in jail. 

People typically use hot water to increase the flow rate.  It was cold weather and we were using gas at a decent rate. It was possible for the gas to have gotten low and not evaporated as much as we needed. Since the gas cylinder was considerably empty, I was not worried initially. After the initial pouring, I did not feel comfortable pouring more water when the gas didn't start flowing. There are some automatic checks which prevent you from taking unnecessary risks. Lets call it gut feeling. 

You people are just about gut feeling. You keep to yourself. I will keep to myself. I don't need you people. Fucking hypocrites. Just because you are a herd, you think what you decide is right. Fucking herd mentality people. 

I have not bought up the things of abuse of power and wealth. I don't stoop so low. I don't levy unnecessary charges. What we are seeing is your arrogance about being smart, taking advantage of unsuspecting people. Fucking arrogant hypocrites. 

I have realized that the movement is screwed up. There is no justice in this world. Jiski laathi uski bhais. Hence, I am out of this movement. Unless the person who created the situation is held responsible. 

I have not even played the victim situation. When I put my case together with the victim situation, i am fairly sure you people will be held responsible. And I dont mean victim sitiation in the sense of exploiting something. Rather in the sense of depression. That I have been put through so much that it is very possible that I may not be functioning at my best. And despite knowing everything and being aware of all the facts and situations, you people still saw it fit to play such a cruel and life threatening joke. 

Knowledge is knowledge. Smarts is smarts. Both are separate. You have to combine both to get to a solution. Just smarts doesn't work. I don't know how many times do I have to explain this to you people. I have explained it at least 5 times. And your guys are not even that smart. Mediocore at best. At least not smarter than me. Isko udhar kar do aur usko udhar kar do. That's the extent of their smartness. Tell me if your guy is so smart how come he didnt know how to burn wood despite doing this for a lifetime. Even when I explained to him everything so clearly. I rest my case. 

You can cite points. I can also cite many points where forget smarts, stupidity was on full display. If you want to go that route, i am game for it. I don't always highlight it. Not really a big fan of just smarts. I believe in knowledge + smarts. 

I am pretty sure you guys are out of your depth. The common sense and smarts thing is good but not always enough. You need more than that on many occassions.  Like I did with the carbonizing kiln. Lets level the playing field in case you think I am oppressing the weak. Leave your workers, can you build a better kiln at this cost than me for one step activation? I rest my case again. 

Really man. Don't stoop so low. I don't oppress people. I am just lazy. And have been through a lot so a little cranky as well. Have you seen me treat them differently despite this being a norm in many places here? I mostly accord equal treatment. 

Your guy couldn't seal a kiln properly even in so many attempts. Kept repeating mistakes. Ignores instructions. Everyday mistake sets the process back 1 whole day. Plus the time, effort, and money.  There is so much pressure on me. 

Did your guy propose any solution better than me? Anything he did better than me? They are used to physical work, they work day in and day out, so they may (or may not) have somewhat better hands for case like tying a rope. But that's it. Nothing else. Did I ever not listen to your guy? Did I ever reject any of his propositions outright? Then why this feeling that am an oppressor. I teach them because it reduces my risk. The work is more efficient. Ok. You may have gotten me in rocket. But I did ask him to look down the pipe when it was not heating up. Ask him. My doubt was the heat transfer was not effective due to some deposit. There can be n number of reasons. You dont suspect foul play unless you are aware that you need to be on the lookout for it. So you start with the higher probability issues and then move down to narrow probability issues. If you suspect foul play, you will look for a different path of diagnosing.  what is the easiest to tamper, where was the person accessing it. Only the path of diagnosis differs. Eventually foul play or not, it will be caught. Why would I suspect foul play? Only when I started focusing on backpressure, did I suspect something may be blocking it. Even then I did not suspect foul play. It could be something stuck due to whatever reason.

In gas your guy said, i suspect it is the joint portion. I told him this seems like a low probability thing but you are free to explore once we are done with higher probability issues. Ask him if I did not say the exact words. 

These things are stopping too low. It is victimizing a depressed guy who may not br functioning at hundred percent due to depression and other health issues. I can only trust the word of workers if I am not able to look into a specific area. I need  much more effort to look through the heat riser. I will need to climb a chair and look down which is a bit exerting. I don't do it unless necessary.  So I rely on the workers word. I don't want to play this card. I don't like to. But this is just to highlight because the level you people stoop to is pathetic. Horrible and brutal. Who knows what else will you do in future? 

Why I suspect the issue with heat riser? One the distillation time of pressure cooker was varying a lot. Could be due to other reasons as well. Another, the back pressure was a lot. Could be due to charcoal blocking. The 4 day thing I attributed to latent heat of water. There was a lot of convection. I was just trying to maximize the collection of wood vinegar so I persevered with keeping the towel wet. But as soon as I saw water evaporating, I realised convection is at play and removed it. 

You may form an opinion of me as stupid by fooling me occassionally (I really can't put a number of times. Sad but true. Shouldn't be acknowkeding it),  but what matters is finding a good solution. I am not sitting with a fluid dynamics or thermodynamics degree to be able to pinpoint exact issues in one go. An engineering background suffices for diagnostic work. I may miss it initially if not paying enough attention. But I can find it using a bit of trial and error. Eventually, it will be solved. I know how to build good systems. Good effective, efficient systems. Sometimes I take shortcuts which people think of donkey work. But it is just testing something. You don't know my reasoning for using something. Sometimes you may do incorrect things but it is fine as long as you are headed in the right direction. 

Honestly, your workers are not up to the mark. It is not their fault. Your ideology is not up to the mark. You need to rethink your ideology. Ignore it if you think I am out of place. You infuse the workers with your ideology which is  one of the root cause of discords.  I have told it repeatedly. You need knowledge +;smarts. You can't ignore either if you want to build optimal solutions. Education is not necessary. Knowledge is required. Optimal solutions give you a buffer against losses. If you are doing it the best possible way in the world, then you cannot go in loss. I can pass on the savings from the optimal solutions to workers. Where else do you think I will get money to pay higher wages? This is not west. Customers don't pay do much money here. You have such high markups. The margin is not high. A lot of people are ready to do your work for less. Only by doing things optimally and finding value can you pay living wages. And I had even offered to pay living wages. Profit sharing and all.  I can't pay 18k as basic salary. It can only be done by profit sharing. and I have not even shyed away from it. I have explicitly mentioned that it can be done with profit sharing. High base salary ties your hand. You have few bad quarters and you are screwed. Profit sharing diversifies the risk.  I am offering a decent salary. 12k + 6k is not bad for unskilled worker. And that is because I have found value. You won't really get this much anywhere else in this town at least. Ask your workers. And I want people to be happy so they can be more productive.  

Honestly, I can have machines do a lot of the work or use contract based vendors. I don't really need workers given the stress. But I don't mind hiring workers because it will free up my time. Else I will be working 12-14 hours a day. I don't mind if someone benefits from me. My contribution to society. 

Your movement is misguided. Lack of opportunity is the issue. Value of labor cannot be equal else there will be no growth. Equality should be in opportunities. I have never shyed away from giving opportunity. your workers have just not performed up to the mark. 

Here is a basic scenario. I find value. I don't tell anyone. I keep it to myself. I don't hire anyone. Nobody knows about the value. I benefit solely. Now tell me why will I go and share this with others? It is a lose lose for everyone. I will have to spend 12+ hours daily and workers don't get any jobs. Everyone loses. I will lose less than the worker. This is what I am threatened with daily. The sense of entitlement is appalling. I will work where I can generate the maximum impact and that is in identifying the value. Some reasons why I don't want to hire workers. What if they ask for equal share later? What if they want to convert it to co-op? How can I trust them to do the same for me? 

I put my life in risk (due to the game, failure may have meant death), reputation at risk (although this shop may have sailed),  endured harassment,  kept going  through it. After losing almost everything.  All through rigorous hardwork when everyone was baying for my blood. These vultures would have shredded me to bones if I had failed to identify value. I would have to perpetually live in shame until I proved myself again. Demoted and relegated to the corners of society like an outcast. I endured daily ridicule, disrespected and ridiculed by everyone including children including my nieces.  Getting judged for everything.  People torturing. Imagine the amplification of all this with brainchip.  Ezekiel would have killed me. He still tries to. Says I got verandah. Now people want to take it away. Honestly, this is why I have started hating the workers. Their sense of entitlement not knowing what I have gone through. I really hate Ezekiel. The miserable prick. Knows everything. Put me through everything. Still tortures me. Below I am driving home a point so don't get offended. What if workers dig random ditches and ask to get paid for it? No disrespect intended. Just making a point about the importance of VALUE (bolded and capitalised for extra emphasis). Ezekiel, I have you by the balls. You have no argument left. You lost any authority over this when you didn't realize all the value that can be generated. I don't blame you. It can happen. Not a big deal. 

I agree that workers should be paid fairly. But what some people are asking is just senseless. 

People say keep your value with you. I will if the hypocrisy continues. Only in a sane environment can there be any collaboration. I need my interests protected. I can stoop low, get into all kinds of philosophies and hypocrisy but no point doing that. 

Is it actors vs directors fight? Your bunch seems like actors. Hence, you people emphasize on workers. Anil Kapoor and Anurag Kashyaps movie. Well, news for you. It is the director. The director wins 9/10. My honest opinion is you people are misguided. 

I cannot explain it enough. Honestly I don't need to.  Just in a matter of few hours, I have potentially revolutionised the water filtration and similar industries. It will become very affordable to drink high quality water. But this took a lot of background work. I rest my case. 

The company belongs to me. I am not going to be an employee in my own business. Some arrangement can be worked out. But I will never be an employee. This is set in stone. Can't be changed. 

And you people have problem with that as well. Heads you win, tails I lose. 

What I am not willing to do is part with my work at any cost. I have spent a lot of time and energy into this. so i am not going to part with it. 

You tell me why no issues with Abdul. It was all peaceful. All good. Not one issue of raised voice. Even when he broke the burette I did not say anything. It is because he was not stressing me unnecessarily with his whimsies. 

Please go to jail. Let justice be done. I have already received the sentencing. It is time you receive yours. 

Honestly, go fuck yourself (left not as a sign of disrespect but just to emphasize how strongly I feel about your unfair and unnecessary meddling). You have nothing on me.  I am not intimidated by the herd. Man if you think you are so smart, then how come I have found so many good things to benefit climate change and you have not while you are so passionate about it. I may have better solutions than the herd. Don't get antagonised. It is just some friendly banter. 

I don't know if you have done anything good for me. Maybe you have. Maybe you haven't. I got a lot of clues from movies so maybe you guys did something for me. Or maybe you did all this for the movement and I just happened to pick it up. Either way, you have my gratitude for letting me know. I appreciate it else I may have been in the dark. Not big on social cues you see. 

I didn't need to get explain anything. I did it to get you off my back. Nothing else. 

The only thing with all of the above is that I am not hiring right now. People have put me at their mercy believing they can strong arm me into meeting their demands. I will first set the record straight by doing everything without anyone so that a bad precedent is not set. I don't want to be subject to the whims of people. Human nature is not good. I don't trust humans. I am a fairly straightforward person.  People can and do take advantage of me. I don't want this to happen.  It is owners strike this time. 

Once the record is set straight, I may consider hiring again. Honestly, I am scared of hiring. I don't feel my interests will be protected. Ezekiel has scared me. I don't want to become an employee in my own business. 

Kyoon mujhe roj aapki adakat mei aana padta hai. Further victimizing a victim. 

Essay likwa diya free mei. I don't know why I do this. Can you at least show it to a philosophy or sociology professor? I want to assess my debating skills. 

Are we done? Will you leave me alone? 

Repeating. Not giving my business to the movement.