Deliberate Weakness Continues

Deliberate weakness mechanisms continues. Ezekiel forces some hormone production which causes a lot of weakness. My game wife is my enemy. Not marrying for sure. I cannot trust anyone anymore. I don't have any capacity to go through another abusive relationship. The current abuse has left me in no shape to marry.  I have to accept that there will be some parts missing in my life. That I will never be whole again. 

Not marrying will reduce any incentive to torture and change me. Toxic feminism has made women unconducive partners.