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My physical condition will very soon require a robot. Humans are not reliable. Robots are. Soon starting a side project of making robots.  Take open source stuff and build upon it. 

The amount of torture I have gone through makes me feel the wife is going to try to emasculate me. I am not comfortable with this.  Women are definitely one of my biggest enemies. What they have put me through, it is likely, I may hate them forever. They have been significantly involved in destroying my life. Truly horrible people. More or less final that I am not marrying right now. Not for the next few years.   Mainly because of hacking and unnecessary torture. The recent staff problem has just reinforced the thing. Women are one of the biggest enemies. Responsible for destroying my life significantly.  Netflix is no small enemy. 

I have begun to suspect there is entrapment. 

Somebody has been offended by tip. Bryan Cranston was tipped by Mukherjee in a movie. Mukherjee was an FBI Informer. Bryan Cranston was surprised and a little offended when he was tipped.  This is being brought up in quora. 

Not good people. Will go out of their way to destroy their own for personal gain.  It is Rajasthanis who are involved in blocking staff. 

Saale randi ke pille staff ka problem kar rahein hain.  Chutiye kuch samajhte to hai nahi.

Creating staff problems. Remove all the unnecessary stress and I can go about being fit and working. Otherwise don't interfere. You can't have it both ways. If there is harassment, I can't get fit. Too much energy is wasted in dealing with harassment.  Ezekiel is a big enemy. 

Can I kill both? I am definitely not interested in the chicken. Chicken should leave me alone. 

Civil War is old vs new. Iron Man is new.  Captain America is old guard. I guess UK and Europe are more of old guard. Conservatives. America is mainly Iron man I guess. Women are old guard.  Hacking is part of civil war. I have become a casualty of civil war. Collateral damage. Where do I stand on it? Modern stuff is going to be dominated by tech giants. I guess with modern stuff, you have to either do a job or be very advanced to compete with the giants.  If you look at the bigger picture, the value creation by modern stuff will outshine everything. But you have to get lucky. It is not a sure thing. It could be winner takes a whole lot more if not all. It is all centralized. One company (or few big companies) can do it all. Too risky. Small guys stand a small chance. You can definitely build upon the tech giants to do custom stuff and do good business. Eg. A chatbot. You can use any dialogue management software of a tech giant to customize it for your client. And the val...

Give limited useful advice. Withold information from me deliberately. Only academic purpose knowledge sharing. Seems like everyone wants me to be doing research. Nothing more useful.  

Ezekiel is the real enemy. Destroying and demoralizing me. Ezekiel abhi bhi BG waale incident se khisyaya hua hai. Trying to discredit me.

This is not a good country. High chances of communism coming back. Better move to another place. 

Sharma ko anti immigration waalo se contract mile hain. Anti immigration could be a bigger issue than corruption. But the real damage remains hacking. There is absolutely no doubt that hacking has forced me to quit online work.  Trade war bhi hai hi. 

Hmmm.

Ezekiel, are you my FBI Agent?

There is absolutely no way that hackers are going to go Scot free. Maybe they wanted to expose pseudo scientific stuff, but a lot of these comex things cannot be handled without testing it.  Ab to activated charcoal ka hi kaam hoga. Aur kuch nahi hoga 3 mahine. Hackers will simply pay a billion dollars for destroying my life.  Absolutely no doubt that Ezekiel was sognificantly involved in destroying my life through hacking. 

Carbon cost will be lower for small scale stuff. 

AI can help create a database to realize synergies. 

Communism is rising again. Robots are the only solution.

No support. Only harassment. 

If I have a chance of using machines over giving people jobs, I will go for machines. Fuck people. 

NO one wants to do physical work anymore. Not even the labors. So I guess robots are the only hope for capitalists.  I would anyday prefer to work with robots than human beings. I am going the mechazilla way. Work with machines. No people. Too much complication in working with people. 

What is and what could be are fighting. 

Offline is not going anywhere. One week of BRR. Vapour compressor alongside.  Offline doesn't suit me well. For me, online is better. I am not a great people person. 

Arthur Shaw says you can keep the money but people in the diary are too important to be named. Gray man also shows the top people going scot free. 

Everything else is just too much work. 

The issue is professionalism. An employer knows that they will lose some money due to worker unprofessionalism. Hence, they offer lower salaries to offset some of these losses. If the worker starts behaving professionally, then the amount can be increased. Otherwise it cannot. 

Offline is not suited for me. Online is much better for me. I cant deal with stupid unreliable people. 

Tere unit ka conflict of interest hai activated carbon mei. Agar conflict hai to chod doonga but tujhe sach batana hoga. License fee kuch de diyo mere tricks ki.  Dekh yahan (dhanbad mei) coal cheap milega. Wahin biogas plant bana ke integrate kar lenge. Coal based activated carbon ka saara kaam dhanbad se hi hoga. Wahan infrastructure bhi better hoga.  Coal based bhi ho jaayega. Tu application dhoond. Superactivated carbon ke baare mei soch thoda. Saara biogas (primarily co2) activation karenge. Kuch potash se karenge. Kya pata CO2 se superactivated ban jaaye. Ek paper mei to bana hai. Co2 activated ko potash se reactivate bhi kar sakte hai.  Mai unnecessary competition mei believe nahi karta. Sabka katega. But mere ko koi problem nahi hai. Kyoonki Mera best hai. No one can compete with me.  Zomato ya uske jaisi company ke saath tie up kar lete hain. These companies are uniquely positioned. Bahut saara food waste collect ho jaayega. Kuch ka biogas ban jaayega (along...

For a person like me, who doesn't want to deal with people, online is much better. I have no patience to deal with stupid and unreliable people. Hence, I will prefer online work for sometime.Till I find reliable people. Where I don't have to worry so much. Cash is King is pure chutiya. He has lost his grasp on reality. 

If there is one person, it is the whore Ezekiel who needs to go to jail. 

Absolutely positive that he did this using his machinations. 

Providing reactivation kits can be a game changer. People who were unwilling to buy previously will now but it. Because the cost reduces substantially.  These things take time. I cannot do these if I am engaged in daily operations.  Using biogas also reduces costs substantially. Both heating as well as activation. And we market it as environment friendly. This should fetch some premium. Improve margins. Maybe even get carbon credits for this. If bogged down in operations, I cannot think these things. Identifying insightsike where chemical or physical activation is needed is not Ezekiel's cup of tea. Stupid fuck doesn't know up from down and thinks he is the smartest person in the world. I cannot emphasize the importance of insulation to everyone. It reduces time taken and heating costs significantly. Yet people want to fight me on it.  I cannot explain all this to stupid fucks. I am a little bit frustrated. A little tired. So better stick to online. I am better suited for...

Sirf jail milega. Aur kuch nahi. Not one single item.

Still keeping me in jail despite everything. To save 1 person. To save the corrupt unit. But Ezekiel is the real enemy. He has disturbed my life the most. Horrible people with horrible egos. Sometimes I think that terrorists are justified. I have experienced the atrocities and wouldn't mind becoming a terrorist. I would prefer taking revenge. The arrogance that they can do anything to anybody needs to go. Why don't they just fucking die instead of resorting to corruption. 

Had to remove china clay number due to hacking. This led to a delay due to which couldn't apply insulation. Such events led to Shankar firing. All work stopped. Similarly quit online working altogether due to hacking. Can't test or verify results.  In sum, a lot of damage in my life has been caused due to hacking. Everytime they think they have done a harmless thing, but in reality it sets a chain of events into motion which damages me a lot. Aur tujhe kuch nahi de raha Ezekiel. Tu kisi cheez me layak nahi hai. Ek bhi product nahi doonga. Na karoon manjoor hai but tujhe nahi doonga. Tu disturb aur demoralize karta hai. Yahan mat aa muh maarne. Itni mehnat ki ab activated charcoal band kar do. Dimag kharab ho gaya tera. Phir Teri charity pe jiyega aadmi? apni charity apne paas rakh. Mai to yahi kaam karoonga aur tu jaayega jail bahut saalo ke liye. Sandro ka dalla Ezekiel. Agar tune koi product use kar liya, phir to aur lamba jaayega. Specially tax waala.  Hum yahan din raat ek...

Ezekiel uses humiliation as a tool to control me. 

Absolutely no doubt about it. Whatever the corrupt unit did was secondary. Both have to answer for their crimes. 

Kaam nahi karoonga woh acceptable hai but Shankar ko hata doonga 1 bhi chutiyapanti hui to. Absolutely last chance. Jo karna hai kar lo. Force karoge to nahi rakhoonga. Chutiyo itne dino mei samajh nahi aaya ki mai value identify karta rehta hoon. Khoon jalwane ka Itna time nahi hai. Abhi bhi activated carbon mei study bachi hai. 

Only jail. Nothing else. Including hackers. 

So are you sith lord?  Rosamund pike in I care a lot ki story bata de. Ezekiel is the real enemy. Thoroughly destroying my life. Every aspect of it. Yahi randichoda har cheez mei interfere kar raha hai. 

Possibly threatened in my sleep that the work is being taken over by someone else. I wonder is it because I am not doing the physical work.  Yes, you can take over the work. But you have to leave all the value added by me. You cannot use any of the value I have added. Not application specific preparation, potash (and vapor compression drying of potash), not washed ashes (glazing, liming material etc.), not flue gas activation (including biogas where CO2 is high, and oxygen killing trick), not self activation, not nitric acid, not wood vinegar, not the kiln design, not reactivation kits, not distilled water, not NaOH, not anything else (even charcoal from ashes). Then you are free to take over. BTW, these are not mentioned on net. Khud linking ki hai saari.  Yahan apna randi mat roya kar. Kahin aur jaakar randi rona kar. Aur charcoal mei bhi tere chutiye consultant se bahut jyaada insights nikal di. Woh to sirf information deta tha. Sabko actionable mei Maine convert Kiya. Tu J...

Hackers shouldn't go Scot free. NOT AT ANY COST. They have to go to jail. Nothing can be finished due to hacking. 

100 percent sure.

Aur koi alternative nahi hai.

Phir paise lekar aa gaya. Woh bhi chillad. Khud rakh le. I will be much more happy seeing everybody behind bars.  Paise ki koi tension nahi hai. Apna chal jaayega. Meri jaroorate kam hai isliye mujhe pharak nahi padta. Thoda time lag sakta hai settle hone mei. But jail terms pe koi compromise nahi hoga. Jail to sabko jaana hi padega. I just won't have it any other way. Everyone including anti immigration agents, corrupt unit, women and anyone involved has to go to jail No amount of money is going to change this decision. Money is not important anymore.  Yeh kaam mein total free ka paisa hai.  Bahut aaram se bhi karoonga to kahin nahi gaya. Bhai nahi chahiye millions of dollars. Mujhe jaroorat hi nahi hai. Mujhe koi maar dega paise ke liye. Log mere se milenge paisa lene ke liye. Bahut saare chaploos ban jaayenge. Mujhe sirf problem hi problem ho jaayegi. Worst scenario for an introvert. Poori jindagi barbaad.  Only jail. Nothing else. Zero money. Only jail. Everyone ...

By constantly manipulating everybody, he is causing me max harm and not letting me settle down?

Will neither sell any of the products and solutions, nor go for any investments.  Everyone has to go to jail. Bribery won't work.Ezeikiel especially has to go to jail. Next few years of my life will be dedicated to fighting in court. Mastermind is definitely going to jail.  Ezekiel tu jalta hai mere se. 

Done with most of the theory. Have developed a pretty good understanding of the whole activated carbon stuff. Perhaps more than most of the people who are working casually in this space. Have definitely got an edge in terms of knowledge. Customization, Potash, washed ashes, activation using flue gas, nitric acid, reactivation kit, vapor compressors, and some other edges (such as NaoH production using solar panels) also present.  But manipulation won't let me progress. Fucking stupid Ezekiel. Disturbing and manipulating to fulfill his own agendas. Ezekiel please stop interfering.  Stop trying to manage me. Clean up your act.  Now feel like taking a break. Also have to finalize the automated portfolio construction. The liquidity thing is tricky.  It needs to be given final touches. But the most potent. No body is addressing the liquidity thing properly. 

Not letting me have workers is a plan devised by women to force me to fail. They are responsible for hacking which forced me to quit online work. I guess most of the evil that has befallen on me has been due to women. My real enemy are women.

Why do they have to go ahead and change a person? I just wish they left me alone. I have no interest in associating with women.  It is women who are blaming everything on my family. Women are causing divide and rule. They are causing infighting.  Honestly, I want to actually start killing women. The constant interference in my life has destroyed me. Women fear violence because they are physically weak. But that doesn't stop them from manipulating people. 

Yeh snake Kam madarchod nahi hai..

I know who you are. Purushottam Babu dhanda karna hai to bada karo warna mat karo. I know Purushottam Babu.

Tu totly useless hai. Only compounding the problem. Not letting me have peace. 

Nobody has the entire picture. They make random decisions based on the limited amount of information they possess. Thats why I have to control everything.  Anyone not conforming to the goals will be fired instantly. I have no patience left to tolerate the whims of other people.  I dont want to do my way or highway but there isn't much choice left. For now, this is the policy. 

This fight is also going on.

Fucking useless place. 

Constantly destroying my life. Interfering, trying to change me. 

Upwork is totally useless. One of the worst sites in the world in terms of speed. 

No support. Too much interference and harassment in my work. So moving it for now. Will look for a location other than Sahibganj. No point working here. Unless everything is exactly (each and every thing) met to my demands, I am not interested in working.  Yeh jagah hi madarchod hai. Total bekar jagah hai sahibganj. Yahan kaam karke phayda nahi.  Tabhi saala itne saal mei develop nahi hua. Waise ka waisa hai. Shankar ko hire nahi karoonga. Aur hire kiya to I will be on him watching for any signs of unprofessionalism. And firing on spot. No laxity. Extra strict hoga uske saath sab. if he can handle it, then only he should think. Most definitely, he will be fired. Kyoonki koot ke pav paalne mei hi dikh jaate hain. Sahibganj ke bahar hi set karoonga waise to.  Madarchodo mere saath jabardasti karke kuch nahi milega. Mujhe koi pharak nahi padta. Bahut avenues hai mere paas. Mere ko apna khoon bina matlab nahi jalwana. Mere ko value create karne ka time chahiye. Mai yeh cheez ...

Vigilantes remain the main enemy. 

Sab barbad hoga. Chutiyo ko samajhna padega ki dono mode mei kaam karna hoga. Kuch din baad hogi online potti.

I am pretty sure I am not going to marry. Women are truly horrible people who will destroy my life. 

Yeh bhi Ezekiel ke unit ka kaam hai kyaa?

A specific group has this problem: eating your cake and having it too. Hypocrites. 

Bas aise hi. 

Time flies really fast with John. Some manipulation. Like it was being with Reddy in chess. There also I was getting less time while Reddy was getting more. Everything is biased against me.  Now no more consulting with John. Any lack of quality in carbon products will be due to hackers. They have hacked the timing and forced me to stop consulting. Plus in many instances, I have noted that John gives me game numbers.  Now I am not going to spend anything on improving the product quality. All because of hackers.  Every aspect of my life has been thoroughly destroyed by hackers, vigilantes, and manipulators. 

Don't think anyone can deliver more value in this business. 

Walmart is elephant.  

Peter wants threesome. 

No professional culture. Going to bolt if I get a more friendly place to work. There is nothing for me here anymore. All relationships have gone bad. All equipments will be carried with me. Same work will be done elsewhere.  This is going to be the testbed only. I don't even feel safety of my belongings here anymore.  No one with so much negative past here will want to live here. There is nothing here anyways. There is no support, no professional environment, overall not a conducive environment.  2 months will do thorough development and testing and then I am gone. I can do this work from anywhere. Very easy to setup. Will check for 2 months. If I am able to generate a professional setup in two months, then will stay, else leave.  If there is unionisation, then I will bolt. 

Not at all interested. Everyone goes to jail including the corrupt unit, immigration people.  It is too late. Money is not the priority anymore. I guess the immigration people were using me but not actively fucking me. Not pure evil but somewhat diabolical. Put the chain of events in motion. Then saying that things just got out of hand. Corrupt unit actively fucked me. Sandro unit needs to go to jail. Hackers definitely need to go to jail. Tu dadi ka bhi rishtedar ho sakta hai.  Dekh Mai kisi ke liye kaam nahi karta. Main sirf apna hi kaam karta hoon.  Mere ko koi investor bhi nahi chahiye. Mera chote mote loan se kaam ho jaayega. Itni mehnat karne ke baad mere ko nahi pasand hai koi mere upar aa kar baith jaaye. Aur ab yeh kaam theek hi mil gaya hai. Kuch months mei set ho jaayega. Phir koi tension nahi. Jail sabko jaana padega. 

I got a call from Bajaj offering interest rates of 34 percent per annum. This may be more than RBI permissible limit.  RBI should take a note of this.  If the call was not from Bajaj, then this post should be read accordingly. I am forwarding a complaint to RBI.

The corruption issue persists. I am beginning to think the corrupt unit will escape.  The entire facade may have been about discrediting me.

Bhai koi deal nahi kar raha. Tum sab log jail Jaa rahei ho. The real damage remains hacking. Hackers have truly been responsible for destroying my life. Absolutely no doubt that hackers destroyed my life. Hackers should be the first to go to jail.  Google is also going to get sued. Tu to definitely jail Jaa Raha hai.  Why don't people get it that I won't do any deal? I don't need the money. Why should I accept a deal? It will give me more satisfaction if the perpetrators go to jail.  All parties inudibg hackers, anti immigration agents, corrupt unit, Ezekiel should go to jail. 

As long as harassment continues, abuse will continue. Direct proportional it is.  You stop the harassment, I stop the abuse.  I don't really care about my future anymore. The favour will always be returned. 

Time to start learning mechanical engineering. 1 full week to be devoted to this.  All courtesy hackers, harassers, and manipulators.

Just do the testing and move out. Establish it in a more friendly place. I need a break from all past. Else it will haunt me till end. 

Tune mere se pyaar nahi kiya. You were working for/with my father unit to bring me back. But beech mei apna game khela aur badla liya. Galti kiye waala unit hai tu. Tere saath kisi ne galti ki hai. Aaj se tera naam galti kiye. Tu anti immigration waalo ke saath bhi mila hua hai. Probably they are your employer.  The below instances could be the actual betrayal or references to actual betrayal. Actual betrayal could be not getting commission on a deal.  1. Lal kaptan mei dikhaya hai ki tujhe paise nahi mile poore sethji ka beta wapas pahuchane ke. Phir tune jabardasti ki to mile.  2. Bad blood mei dikhaya hai ki Declan ko bhi respectfully treat nahi kiya gaya to he cooperated in getting his employer's son killed. 3. In Psych, the detective helped his son win in poker but was only given 750k of winnings. The rest was kept by his employer. Yahan tu bina matlab chauda ho gaya. Bina matlab ka credit le le poker winning ka.  4. Jaideep alhawat ki movie mei bhi tune chutiya...

Have begun to realise that rules are equally important. If everyone has their own subjective interpretation on what is right, there will be chaos. This especially applies to some people who are not in a position to make informed decisions. 

 Yaha Teri dictatorship nahi chalegi. Mai Shankar ko nahi rakhna chahta. Bahut stress badh jaata hai. But rakhoonga agar theek se raha aur stress nahi badhaya. Waise 2-3 week ke baad hi kaam shuru karoonga abhi. 2-3 week to nahi kar raha kisi ko hire. Given the amount of stress given by the workers, it is better to work in peace for a few weeks, then hire to implement it. Itne dino tak stress increase nahi karna mere ko. Utna time abhi product research, marketing, all the heat calculations, compressor development, heat exchanger development, and testing mei hi lagega. Abhi heat transfer ka crash course karna padega. 1 week to lag hi jaayenge. Mechanical engineering ka half crash course karna hoga. Abhi to kiln bhi banana hai. Whole experience with workers has left me drained.  Mujhe force karne ki jagah agar usko samjha liya hota na to better hota. Ek hi condition pe rakhoonga. Koi chutiyapanti nahi. Ek bhi nahi. Instant fire agar koi chutiyapanti hui.  He is to a conside...

Still blocking all my work. 

100 percent final not setting up a business in Sahibganj. There is no way I will set up a business here. Just testing and move to somewhere else.  These people don't deserve me. There is no point busting your balls when all you are going to get is unnecessary stress. People still don't understand me. 

Not good experience with workers here. Workers will be brought from outside. Here workers will threaten you. No professionalism here.  Most probably will not set any business here. Too many risks. Not a conducive  environment for doing business. High chances of incurring losses due to unprofessionalism.   First off there is very limited availability of things. Most of the things need to be bought from outside. Secondly, there is little professionalism in labour and mistri group. Cannot rely on them. Have to be involved with them full time. No time left to create value. Or do other activities like selling. It is difficult to explain to people that there are a lot of activities involved apart from physical labour. And they will not work unsupervised.  It is better to setup where there are more friendly conditions. Where people are more professional. Randi Mafia har jagah apni gaand marwayegi.

The mafia is pretty stupid. Total unprofessionalism ka culture hai yahan pe. Itna chutiyapanti (daily timing issues, no show without informing, shoddy work, not doing anything and not informing while playing games, doing unnecessary work without being told to, handling own business calls on my time, cheating during money returns. Many times I had to remind. Full intention of cheating. ), mere dimag mei jo chutiya hai bolta hai bonus do. So many termination level offenses. Phir bhi rakha yeh sochkar ki iski wife pregnant hai. Pehle hi instance mei fire kar dena chahiye tha. Sochna hi nahi tha wife ke baare mei.  Phir to gross levels of unprofessionalism ko encourage kar rahei ho. Giving bonus will justify their behaviour and they will keep doing this. They will consider that this behaviour is acceptable. If there is even a single termination level offence in a month, there is not going to be a single rupee of bonus. Mafia jaayei apni gaand marwaane. Isse accha bande hire hi mat karo...

I cannot handle their unprofessionalism. Too much stress it causes. Anyone not able to work unsupervised will be fired.  Seeing the way workers are taking advantage of me, it is going to be a fire culture. Anyone showing slightest signs of unprofessionalism will be fired after one warning. Not more than one warning.  Both Anuj Gupta and Shankar said that you should have fired earlier. That is what I am going to do now onwards. Only because I endured their torture they continued doing it. 

Online modes create a lot of efficiency, synergies, reduce dependency, reduce networking requirements, reduce dependence of individual on society. Faster, smoother, better is the result.  Online is perfect for introverts who are fed up of society.  Still don't get it why these people oppose online modes.  But the platforms shouldn't give so many freebies. Customers should join for the merit. The growth will be slow but sustainable. PayPal was different. The space was entirely new and sensitive. Now, so much freebies just leads to unnecessary cash burn. This has to be recuperated later. 

Due to so much manipulation and harassment, all sense of urgency is gone. Now everything is so laid back. 

Rajverma and Reddington are same unit. 

Tu Jaa. Tu sirf manipulate karega sab ko. Na mere ko kuch karne dega. Rate offer karna band karde. Mai kisi ko kuch nahi bech raha.  Itne dino mei samajh jaana chahiye tha ki mai nahi associate hounga. Tu mujhe control karna chahta hai. Mujhe koi pharak nahi padta tu half half kar. Mujhe kuch chahiye hi nahi. tum sab log court mei milo. I am prepared for all scenarios. I am still not setting up a defensive position. Still not going in the saving mode.  Tu sahi chutiya hai. Poora Gaslight kar do mere ko. Har taraf se mere ko pareshan karo. Sab block kar do. Kuch mat karne do. Aur jab main frustrate hokar kuch karoon to bolo ki failure se frustrate ho raha hai. Sahi gaandu hai tu.  Tere bolne se to business fail nahi ho jaayega na. Jab model mei edge mil jaata hai to ek bahut bada buffer create ho jaata hai failure se. Only reckless stupidity can destroy that edge. 

Rihaana is definitely in the game. Team wonderwoman she is. Nagina Jewellers are probably her unit. 

Vince McMahon is the grandmaster. In Thor movie, Jeff Goldblum is organizing the wrestling. Hulk is his champion. He is the grandmaster.  Grandmaster kyoon Kiya mere saath aisa.  Salesforce aur Big Head ka game chamak Gaya mere ko.

Gupta hi to Turkey hai. Gupta bhi to enemy hai.

Mera kuch nahi jaayega but aapka bahut kuch chala jaayega. Amar Tiwari ki yeh line mei koi bada raaj chupa hua hai.bata de Ezekiel. Tu apna badla le Raha hai. I am sure. Declan from bad blood. Peter Bailish to hai hi. Little finger bhi hai hi.  AFAIK, the plan was to destroy me. 

Every aspect of my life is tortured. Everyone is probing me, testing me, wants to destroy me. The cumulative effect is just too much.

This was it from the beginning. Then prove how evil I am and then justify all the horrible things done to me. 

Ezekiel, does this ring any bell?

Not good. One will be hard pressed to find a famy worse than this. Create problems in everything.  I don't want to have any association with this family. Everyone is dead to me.