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We don't understand quantum entanglement. We don't understand the wave particle duality. We don't understand quantum fluctuations and assorted quantum crap. We dont understand dark matter and dark energy. What if the whole universe is wrapped in some kind of cosmic field; the laws of which are beyond our current understanding. What if this field permeates everything in the universe? It interacts with everything. Can that field be consciousness or god?

Can the success of movies predict human nature? Do movies reflect the mentality of society? If so,  successful movies are a reflection of our internal desires. Are we a voyeuristic and vicarious society? Living through the lives of others. Maybe this is why I don't connect with most movies. Marketers can take some clues from movies.

What is the next step of evolution? Are we the last in line of evolution? What will our future look like millions of years later? How will survival of fittest play out? Will we understand the true nature of creation? Will we become x men? Will we be able to manipulate different celestial objects? Will we change physically? Were humans the intended final outcome? The mind boggles. Who says being single is boring? Would you rather be nagged everyday or do whatever you want? I choose the latter. People say the novelty will wear off. We will see. Is it possible to predict the future of evolution by studying the past changes? Is there any pattern in the randomness? We can run millions of simulations to identify the possible outcomes. IMO humans will be able to overcome aging. How will that affect religion?

Should it affect our way of living if this world is a simulation? Why does it matter if we are pure consciousness or something else? Why should the objective of life be to realize the fact that we are pure consciousness? We experience suffering due to our hardwiring.  If we suffer, eliminate the causes of suffering. Whatever makes us comfortable should be the objective of our life. People say enlightenment reduces suffering. If we are not enlightened, j ust being is the solution. Just being is the closest thing to enlightenment. My friends there is no objective of human life. Liberation can be objective according to Hindu mythology and Buddha's process of becoming.

What if this universe is an experiment to see what happens when the creators do something? Maybe many such experiments are being run in other universes. But why so much time to create living beings? Does it mean that the simulators are kind of eternal beings (at least in human timeframe). Maybe it is time dilation. Or did they do it for their future generations? The vastness of the universe (compared to earth) lives nothing to imagination (At least until we find evidence of life somewhere else in the universe). This has got to be an experiment. Life evolved randomly. There are laws governing randomness. Maybe intelligent design was introduced after suitable conditions were found on earth. What if these experiments are part of high school project? Like a video game; only the outcome was not decided in advance. What if the game was copy pasted with some changes? What if the passing criteria was the creation of life? Maybe one of the students finally succeded. I am getting cheeky. Co...

I am thinking of becoming a full time philosopher cum writer. There is no point of doing anything else. This is what I love. Maybe keep working on the farm. I think I can simplify philosophy and spirituality.  Now just need to find an online course. 

Finished the first outline of my first novel. It has come out nicely. Wrote a few chapters. It is a good time pass. 26th July:  Made progress on the organization structure. Decided on the modus operandi. 26th November: Sketched some more characters . 28th November: Will write some more today . I have the story more or less figured out. I am focusing on writing individual scenes. Exploring different shades. Focus on philosophy. I so want to write like dostovesky. 29th November: Psychological research is very exhausting . I am capturing the struggles very nicely. 4th December: Decided on the location and methodology for an aeroponic farm. 5th December: Will capture transportation and corruption . Figured a bit of the corruption model. 6th December: A lot of progress made on different fronts.

Alas I fall prey to the trappings of cliched topics. Need to write something on one of the most fundamental questions.

Can you fuck up a person? How apt is the adage: Society prepares the crime. The criminal commits it. ? What happens when a person is sent to prison? What is the reform rate? What is the reconviction rate? Are correctional institutes fulfilling their purpose? Is public shaming effective? One of the most fundamental questions that humanity must answer as soon as possible. The future is going to be decided by this very answer.

I used to watch a lot of infotainment animal documentaries. I learned quite a bit about animal behaviour. Here I will capture instances of animals showing emotions and collective behaviour. 1. Dolphins exclude ill behaving members from their groups. I wonder if humans took a leaf out from their book. 2. A tigress leads a blind old tiger to a waterbody. The tigress was probably his daughter. 3. Animals fight for sex. 4. A group of lions abandons a cub who had broken one of his legs. The cub' s brother tried to  help his brother but everyone else left him. These are just a few examples.

Once you choose a side, make your allegiance known, you lose objectivity.

It is our identification with ourselves which doesn't allow us to live in the moment.

Doing a root cause analysis of things is one of the best ways to resolve your emotions and problems. Always ask why does it matter? How does it matter? My hens were stolen. Why does it make me angry? Why do I feel sad? Why do I feel pained? Because of my attachment to money and ego. I lost money. Failure of business meant failure of intellect. They were hurt. Why am I attached to money? Why am I attached to intellect? Is it nature or nurture? Is it the primitive brain? Has it been conditioned by society? The hardwiring can be overcome if you are aware. But are we that aware? We need a good value system if we are not completely aware. The value system will help in prioritizing our lives.

I think my bank account has been deducted unauthorised amounts. Will need to recheck everything. There is something amiss there as well.

I have begged for food and money on the streets. It was painful, interesting, and fun all at the same time. Myriad emotions well up inside you. Pain overwhelms, you feel like crying. A tear manages to escape your glands and comes to the surface. Then you see the irony of life. You laugh a bit. Then you feel free. It is catharsis. You have seen the lowest and it doesn't matter. I am ready to do it again.

Experience it. Be aware. Don't escape it. Make friends with it. This is not masochism. With time you will learn to overcome it. Always ask why does it matter? How does it matter? Just be. Observe your emotions. You will build character. You will build strength. It will reduce your future. suffering. Have a sense of humour about it. A lot of mental suffering is caused due to self importance. Dont give yourself too much importance. Mental suffering will decrease.

IMO my life will be better without money.  I have no obligations. I have no desires. Why do I need money? Is this coping mechanism, loser talk, or genuine realisation. I don't know. But I do feel that you need to lose everything at least once in your life to gain perspective. But I do feel that I should be compensated for losses because it happened due to manipulation and harassment. Even if I don't get the compensation it is absolutely fine. I can live with it. Now beat this attitude you cocksuckers.

Will try to clear the air about meditation. There is too much garbage swirling out there. A reconciliation is important. Work out your value system first. This will reduce your thoughts automatically. Thoughts will keep coming. Rationalise them. You will keep suffering. Keep rationalizing. Keep compartmentalizing. Just be. Then start meditation. Half of your work is already done. You don't really need meditation. You are meditation. Understand this. This will bear fruit in the long term.

Opening Pandora's box. Survival instinct manifests in different ways. Our brain circuits or pathways are wired for different types of  pleasures and pains. Pleasure circuits are activated in case of actions favoring survival whereas pain circuits are activated in the opposite case. In animals there are limited options for activating these pathways. However, in humans the pleasure pathways (even actions which are not good for survival such as drugs) can be activated by different mechanisms. This is the essence of manifestation of survival instinct. Money is a means for accumulation; one of the primary ways in which survival instinct manifests. Ergo money is symbol of survival strength.  I think the things we do with money also activates our pleasure centres. Double bonus. Love as we know it is also a manifestation of survival instinct.

I am trying to reconcile various ideologies. The objective is to find the essence, simplify things,  and find common ground in order to create more acceptance of each other.  A head to head comparison should be useful. This exercise is not really for me. I have more or less figured out my life path. It is kin d of intellectual masturbation. Do the same fields and energies that make a stone make living things? Is it simply an exchange of fields and energies? Everything is an energy or field (including thoughts) and leaves an imprint in some form on the overall energies and fields. IMO there is pattern in the randomness. I will refrain from calling it intelligent design. Can we explain karma, ghosts, supernatural powers etc using these fields and energies? I think we can. This is probably what spiritual masters call body mind illusion. It is seeing through the gross body and experiencing it as fields and energies. How does physical and mental transformation occur? ...

Just being always resets my thought process. I have to make peace with the fact that since I wish to live life on my terms and not according to society, I will have to face a lot more challenges although of a different nature. So be it.

Elaborating dependent origination theory. 1. If ignorance arises, reaction occurs 2. If reaction arises, consciousness occurs 3. If consciousness arises, mind and matter occur 4. If mind and matter arise, The six senses occur 5. If six senses arise, contact occurs 6. If contact arises, sensation occurs 7. If sensations arise, craving and aversion occur 8. If craving and aversion arise, attachment occurs 9. If attachment arises, process of becoming occurs 10. If process of becoming arises, birth occurs 11. If birth arises, decay and death occur, together with sorrow, lamentation, physical and mental suffering 12. Thus arises the entire mass of suffering I think the top ones are some kind of fields. Arising of one causes another. Like a rotating electric field and magnetic field. Consciousness maybe the field which permeates all the fields;all the fields have consciousness as the base field.

In my quest of reconciling various ideologies I come across many weird ideas. These ideas should be taken with a pinch of salt as they are a layman's interpretation of various theories. In various enlightenment stories people talk about timelessness. How to interpret the seeming weirdness? Imagine there are two dimensions x and y.  An object can move along the x axis and not move along the y axis at all. Similarly if there is an extra dimension beyond space and time you can move along that dimension and not move in time at all. But the counterintutiveness lies in the fact that we can easily understand that one can move along one dimension and not move along another but with time it is altogether different. Space-time fabric, relativity etc can provide some answers.

Is solitude my only companion? I feel weightless. Free from expectations, burdens, nothing to prove.I don't want anything. Just be.

Most of us are driven by survival instinct. What is survival instinct? Survival instinct is the hardwiring which enables a person to survive. IMO both survival of the fittest and collective survival instinct are at play. Once collective survival instinct need is fulfilled, survival of the fittest comes into play. This is basic human nature. Survival instinct manifests in different ways. Our brain circuits or pathways are wired for different types of  pleasures and pains. Pleasure circuits are activated in case of actions favoring survival whereas pain circuits are activated in the opposite case. In animals there are limited options for activating these pathways. However, in humans the pleasure pathways (even actions which are not good for survival such as drugs) can be activated by different mechanisms. This is the essence of manifestation of survival instinct. But is survival instinct our only nature? Our true nature is pure consciousness.Survival instinct is maya. We need to s...

Doing some run of the mill thing. But there is class in this as well. Self improvement is masturbation. Now self destruction....FC I will not trade the sorrows of my heart with the joys of the multitude..KG It is harder to die with hate in your heart...AA We accept the reality we are presented with ...Truman Show Everyone tells you what to do, what's good for you. They don't want you to find your own answers. They want you to believe theirs...P W

Will write stories based on real life events. Have got some good ideas. Maybe will convert my off-grid living experiences in an ebook. Did some writing. Enjoyed it. Will have to put some more research to make it more scientific.

I have successfully grown wheatgrass using tarpaulin. It is an extremely low cost solution and can de deployed on a large scale without incurring significant costs. I am quite sure combining hydroponic farming with integrated farming and vertical farming can solve the food problems to a large extent. Grow your own food.

Society is a survival mechanism. In this age, money is indicative of survival strength. Hence  the obsession with money.

I don’t want to lend credence to the adage “The blind leading the blind” by saying I understand life. I think I have found a way to live that is best suited for me. This doesn’t equate to understanding life. IMO living life on my terms, being aware, not worrying too much are some of the factors that define happiness for me. I am not much of a relationship person. Love etc. don’t mean much to me. Having said that, I do not put too much stock on happiness. As KG says: I would not exchange the sorrows of my heart for the joys of the multitude.  

Just being is awareness. It is having  no attributes. It is having no desires, no aversions, no cravings. It is living in the moment. It is equanimity. It is meditation. It is compartmentalizing. It is every moment is important. It is pulling the strings on the harp with the right tension. Niether too tight nor too loose. Just being is the closest thing to enlightenment. Just being is engaged nonduality. When you are aware you can do an objective analysis. Otherwise the automated/conditioned programming kicks in.  Some ways of just being. One is to gradually remove distractions and train the mind. Opening the heart will help significantly. Other is to directly get started living in the moment; distractions will gradually disappear. From a neurobiological point of view, just being activates the pre-frontal cortex which allows us to overcome the hardwiring. 

Depression is caused due to loss. It may be self-respect, financial, emotional, lack of control etc. I was a bit depressed. I have pulled myself out. I was attacked in all directions. Personal, financial you name it. Every time ask yourself, why do you feel low? Why does it matter? You have to rewire the brain to just be. Once you start just being, you will overcome all sorts of negativity. How do you achieve just being? It is by understanding the things that really matter and don’t matter. It is about embracing every aspect of life with an equanimous state of mind. Once you do this, you will realize you have lost nothing and will come out of depression.

Pride and shame: Do you feel being proud or ashamed of things which we were born into creates boundaries and problems? Isn't this one of the major causes of conflicts in the world?

We are born into a family, caste, religion, region, country. In these boundaries, we find safety, a sense of belonging, a purpose. But aren't these one of the fundamental reasons of many conflicts?. I suppose this is the way of the world, Perhaps we are hardwired to live this way. You have to take the good with the bad. But should we not pause to think if the bad outweighs the good. Or are the boundaries too deeply entrenched to allow us to think rationally. I believe if we approach the problem with an open mind, we can reduce a lot of conflicts and dedicate our energies towards more pressing problems. Survival instinct, the very premise on which the world is moving forward is the root of all evil. It is a necessary evil, not very unlike friction.